Born Male, Wanted to Be Female

I mainly like the female genitalia for its looks, and I also like the way it feels. I have not touched a girl there since I was a small child, but I still remember it being firm but soft. I like the idea of pleasuring a girl, and when I feel sexual tension, she can relieve me.

However, I think doing anything much more than that, such as oral, is gross.

Arik wrote:However, I think doing anything much more than that, such as oral, is gross.

Well.... it depends on the vagina. If everything in the body chemistry is in balance and reasonable hygiene has been observed- I prefer freshly showered bodies- it's... not that gross. Assuming the previous sentence I find performing cunnilingus to be very enjoyable, but that's just me. I took to it pretty quick after taking a lick at it- pun intended...

Having said that, again, assuming things are squeaky clean, I think of fellatio as being rather less 'gross', I think because they're external organs. On the face of it, obviously it's easier to get a penis that's 'market fresh', so to speak- and a lot less dependent on internal flora, PH level, etc. If you want to get technical about it.

To address that, let's get back to your previous question.

Snaga wrote:Do you think there's a reason you don't want more?

I have a drive, but I see that as an artificial desire because that exists strictly because of hormones. And it only leads to frustration. There seems to be another part of me placing value on the female genitalia for reasons outside of its purpose. It's beautiful, but I think there's something more.

I mentioned that I engaged in fantasies where I'm "gender-neutral," meaning I have the mons pubis and labia majora but not any of the other female parts. That suggests I am interested in the female genitalia for something else other than its intended purpose.

Being a moderator, I suppose I should admonish myself for a little necro-threading, but it's only a few years' old in an otherwise quiet forum.

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Arik wrote:I mentioned that I engaged in fantasies where I'm "gender-neutral," meaning I have the mons pubis and labia majora but not any of the other female parts. That suggests I am interested in the female genitalia for something else other than its intended purpose.

The aesthetic? Sort of back to being autogyne- an Ideal that you aspire to?

And how are you doing now?

As for myself, here lately I've been teetering on the edge of actually trying to feminize my body a little- just a little- it's not practical or prudent for me to want to go too far with it, and even if I could, I'd look... not good, much too old for serious explorations. But I already have a little bit of gynecomastia or psuedogynecomastia going on, and I find the desire to have more is starting to outweigh other concerns.