Confused

well to start im really confused about my gender, ive gone thought periods of my life were i felt i was in the wrong body, but now its back i dont know what i am. i hate my breasts, hips everything about being female, i just dont know whats wrong!! i need some advice

you need to see a gender therapist. It is very important.
I have been the same from the other side.
I am now in transition male body to female body.
But the real me, whoever that is (DID), remains the same.
My core self is female.
Your core self may be male.
All the best to you!

thankyou, how would i go and see a gender thearpist? im to scared to tell anyone

i grew up in a middle eastern country where it was so opressive for females...my mother and grandmother hated males. they rebelled against the society. my mother had lesbian pornography in the house. i was skinny with short hair so everyone thought i was a boy..i have always been attracted to very masculine looking muscly women... i always thought i should be a male. i am so ashamed of being a female.. just before i left the country i was born in(aged 11) i had a crush on one my best fried. I told her i would have a sex change and come and get her. i have always had boyfriends but i am very attracted to feminine man. all my friends have always been guys essepecially gay guys. i see being female as weak and vulnerable. yet i am very empowered by women like angelina jolie, oprah, alecia keys, madonna etc. i am a singer and i have gained weight so i no longer get compliments or attention about my body which makes me more ashmed. when i was slim i had no hips or bust and i was sexually forward with guys which made me feel in control now i am frumpy and chubby i just wanna hide myself. when i see powerfull males like David Beckham etc i wish i was like that. it is very confusing.

I sincerely hope you find your way.

I can totally relate as well but from the other side, I have the male body that u desire so and I hate it so much. My feeling of wanting to be a woman are much the same as your wanting to be a man. Except I am attracted to the feminine woman. I don't know if its really an attraction, or more of a "i want what you got" feeling. I am not sure why we feel they way we do but I am sure we all have similar feelings about our desires to be the opposite sex. It's such a shame we just couldn't get together and do a brain or body exchange.