Time to stop.

I have been gambling since 2007, saying I am going to stop, but don't. I am getting too old to recoup my losses. The last loss was $2000. I could have put that in the bank, I could have paid more off credit cards and bills. I feel so stupid.
I am putting $1 away for every day I don't gamble. Its gonna take 2000 days just to recoup that loss. That is only one loss. There is so much more.
I hope to utilize this forum to help me document this. I need somewhere to vent. I need the support as well from others that understand. I am done chasing, time to actually get my life back.

Welcome to the forum Mama,

I liked your idea of putting $1 away for each day you don't gamble. I might suggest putting a stone in a visible jar and as that jar gets really full, you will feel a sense of accomplishment. I worry that with money, it might cause some urges to use it. But if you like that $1 idea, go for it!! Recovery is different for everyone

Have you looked at other barriers to stop you from gambling? I am a huge fan of self-exclusion. If you haven't done so already, please look into that. GA is also a great place to meet people who understand what you are going through.

Take it one day at a time!

Congratulations on making the decision to take back your life , Mama . That takes courage .

Gambling addiction is a disease and it's much more than just a bad habit or poor choices . It's a disease of compulsion and the recovery road can be long and difficult . But you are not alone in this fight !

We have all been where you are and we'll be with you throughout this journey whether you need a high five or a hand to help you up .

You can do this !