Quitting for Good

Thank you NSR.
Yes, I was taking it One Day At A Time initially. Hope to have a long streak now without any relapse.
I'm done with debt due to relapses.

Last day I placed a bet: 24th Aug.
Day being of GF including today: 53 days.

Dang , coming up on 2 months pretty fast . After my 3 month mark I found that my GF days really started to fly by . I'm looking forward to seeing your milestones reached and passed .

Keep it up , Ricardo , you're doing great !

Yes NSR, seems like the days/weeks are going by fast for me. I don't feel much of the month mode yet

Thanks for being my supporter @NSR and @Aries.

Last day I placed a bet: 24th Aug.
Day being of GF including today: 68 days.

Well , we've got a cake for that ! Congratulations and Bravo , Ricardo .

Thank you NSR. Looking forward to more yummy cakes

Aries411 wrote:Wit recovery, we keep on trying, trying and trying to be gamble-free and eventually we reach that stretch where the urges and irrational thoughts become less frequent and manageable.

I don't know why, but I have a really good feeling about this stretch Ricardo! Lets be mindful of our thoughts and keep this demon at bay!

What you had mentioned Aries is pretty much the truth. Thanks for the vote of confidence. I also feel that I will have a good stretch now. I have kept my part...I have not gambled since 24th August and have this practice of brushing off quickly any thought/temptation of gambling.

3 months of GF on the 23rd November 2022.

Congratulations on this awesome milestone Ricardo ! You should celebrate it , it's something to be proud of . I know you'll reach many more of your recovery journey goals and we have cakes for all of them .

Thank you NSR for the lovely and beautiful cake.

2 days back, I was feeling a bit down. Guess because of payment which need to be made as a result of my past gambling activities. I sat in the car at a parking lot as it rained.

Yesterday I managed to make the payment. I sat in the car trying to figure out what to do next.
There was the thought of gambling among other no good thoughts.
Somehow I managed to leave the parking lot and headed back home straight (it was raining too) without doing anything. I guess it is that period of time, when you are down and temptation starts to increase.

Am glad that I made it through the day.

I'm glad you did too Ricardo .

One of my most painful yet most triumphant moments came in the same way , sitting in my car in a casino parking lot with my brain screaming at me to go in and gamble . In those minutes ( which felt like hours ) I had never experienced a gambling urge that intense , that compelling . It was terrifying .

I still don't how I scraped up the strength to drive away but I did . It was a turning point for me . No gambling urge since has ever had the intensity of that moment . It felt like a kind of extinction burst from the addiction . I wonder sometimes if others have had that kind of experience in their recovery journey .

I hope you celebrate that victory . It's no small achievement .