Quitting for Good

Thanks NSR for your encouragement and sharings.
I really do look forward to your replies and postings.

I feel the improvement week after week. I'm committed to come to this forum every Monday and post the honest truth of what I'm feeling.

I did go through to check on some soccer score over the weekend and yesterday. I felt I was toying with danger. But somehow, I kept on thinking, there is no such thing as consistent winning in soccer betting. I did post before about the results can be manipulated or rigged.
And over the week, by chance I saw a video , made by a former organized crime boss , which served as a reminder.

He said "I used to bribe football teams and I won millions of dollars."
Lol...is that good enough proof that everything linked to gambling is either rigged or some sort of scam to get our hard earned money.


I now recall that during the relapse that I have was due to the fact that I had forgotten the dark episodes of gambling in my life. I'm the sort of person who don't dwell in negativism or the past bad experiences. But to the quote that your posted NSR " Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it ", I realized that I have to keep on coming back here and remind myself that I'm an ex-addict.

I still have this lifelong sickness, which I have to be vary or aware of.

Good to hear from you Notlookingback.

This forum gets lonely at times, apart from NSR and Aries active involvement. Not sure, but I find this forum a great place for someone like me, as I don't have access to GA in my country (there was something close to GA meetings which i attended a few years ago).

I read your posting NLB...the one on "Why this addiction must be confronted". It is only an ex-addict like me and the rest of us here can understand the struggle that we have endured.
I wish you the best on being GF. Feel free to come and post and be active in this forum. Any sharing by a fellow mate is much appreciated.

I have also start to keep this in mind: "Connection is the opposite of addiction".
It is only by having healthy connections, we can grow and come up in life. Family is the top priority, followed by working colleagues (I work from home...which is why I felt the loneliness at times), close friends, and parishioners (my church friends/activities).

Sorry RicardoG , I had to remove your video link - we don't allow links to FB on the forum . I did edit your paragraph so it made sense ( I hope ) . If I got it wrong , please PM me and we can change the wording .

New Sun Rising, why did you remove my post?

NewSunRising wrote:Sorry RicardoG , I had to remove your video link - we don't allow links to FB on the forum . I did edit your paragraph so it made sense ( I hope ) . If I got it wrong , please PM me and we can change the wording .

Sorry about that NSR, it must have been awhile and I might have overlooked the rule on posting links. The wording seems good ...sometimes I'm not particular about my sentencing or grammer, as long as the message make sense.

RicardoG wrote:Thanks NSR for your encouragement and sharings.
And over the week, by chance I saw a video , made by a former organized crime boss , which served as a reminder.

He said "I used to bribe football teams and I won millions of dollars."
Lol...is that good enough proof that everything linked to gambling is either rigged or some sort of scam to get our hard earned money.

Maybe just to put the simple transcript here. His real-life testimony before his conversion...

He is from Hong Kong (can't put his name though ). He claims that before he knew God, he was the Satan incarnate. He owns night clubs throughout Asia. In Philippines and Thailand, he owned casinos. And then he said "I used to bribe football teams and I won millions of dollars."
All the triad gangs in Hong Kong was afraid of him.


There was more to his testimony, talking about his past vices and lavish lifestyle ... but in the end, he didn't have peace and happiness. He destroyed a lot of families and lives.

Conclusion: I know for certain that any vices (especially gambling), will not bring happiness in the long run.

-- Wed Apr 27, 2022 12:22 pm --

Notlookingback wrote:New Sun Rising, why did you remove my post?

Was it a new post or maybe it is at the previous page?

Good Gad , NotLookingBack - I am so sorry ! If you made a new post besides the one on the last page ...

I think what happened was that I attempted to reply by quoting your post . Then I was called away and I logged off quickly - I think it may have it deleted my would-be reply and taken your post with it .

That's my best guess anyway . There certainly wasn't anything wrong with your post and it wasn't deliberately deleted . Again - I'm very sorry about that !

Day 31 of GF.

I don't have any urge these days. But will stay cautious of the danger that relapse can bring.
Will stay firm not to dabble in any gambling activities.

Day 37,

All seems good. Focusing on work and family.
No temptation or urge.

Hey Man,

Good for you keep up the good work I'm on 1 month now feels great except I always have the money I lost in my head and how I screwed my families life over.... I feel exactly how you do!!

Money can be made back just have to make it up to family... that's where I'm at now hoping you the best man stay strong.