Hello Everyone,
My name is Navii and im 21 year old
im basically from india but currently staying in Tbilisi ,Georgia
i am here seeking for some advice on how to deal with my addiction since i don’t have any friends who cares about me and i don’t want to break my parents heart sharing this with them
i am now 21 year old with this addiction and with a debt of 10000$ with no idea on how to clear it.
i always hated the idea of gambling but unfortunately here i am in its trap.
i was very happy 5 months ago when i had not idea of gambling but it all started with my unsuccessful business ,i always dreamt of becoming young business man so i started a business of importing and selling cars here in this country everything was fine and one day i got cheated and lost all my investments.
i was desperately searching for a way to recover all the money i lost in business that’s where i came in contact with gambling.(which i regret very badly)
So i started gambling online(there is no shortage for gambling sites in this country),initially i used to place small bets and i was winning all the time so i decided to increase my bets that’s where i started losing and ended up with 0.00$.
Later with newly loaned funds i started gambling again inorder to recover previously lost money and i ended up losing that money too and this went on repeatedly for few times and by that time my debt had become big.
i decided to take help from my parents fo clear off debts and my parents they are so great, they lent me money to clear off debts but i thought ‘using this money i will win enough money to clear debts and i will return this to my parents’ which didn’t happen and i ended up losing that too.
With all this loss and debts i couldn’t find a way to repay other than gambling so i started borrowing money from friends and i started gambling again and again and again.
Now, i lost everything and i am left pennyless so i borrowed money from parents for paying my rent ,bills and for food but i played with that money as well
i am fed up with myself ,i just want to end this life .........5-6 months ago i had everything in my life but now i have messed it up.
nothing has happened according to my plan all students of my age group are so happy having girlfriends, enjoying but here i am with debts.......i am a LOSER
i am a very bad person every time while borrowing money i lie to my friends,family but once i get money i am always there on that gambling site.
i don’t know how to stop and every time i sit i am always thinking about the money i have lost the guilt is killing me
Please help me!