So I’ve been gambling for 10yrs and had some high moments but they were few and far between the awful ones I continue to have. I would say in the last year I have gambled away 20-30 thousand dollars. It has destroyed my will to live or any other enjoyment I have in life. I could deposit 500 bucks turn it into 5 thousand in a matter of hrs and lose it all playing blackjack in a matter of mins. I have placed wagers beyond what I could afford countless times from hundreds of Dollars to over a grand in a single bet. It’s sicken the amount of money I lost, what I have put my family
Through as a result. I mean all my bills are current and I’m not behind on anything
But I have literally nothing In my account til next payday. I have lied, concealed and borrowed to feed this addiction for years and I’m a broken person because of it. Yes I spent everything I have and that’s depressing but I could go borrow and keep living this life but I’m done I can let this destroy the person I once was any longer. Can anybody relate to this empty feeling inside and how does one start to rebuild
Their life?