by conor2198 » Thu Dec 19, 2019 10:37 pm
I am currently 21 years of age, living in a country with one of the highest rates of problem gambling in Europe. I started gambling when I was 16, the amounts I gamble vary, but I always remain broke. I see piers who have streaked past me academically and professionally, I am sick of the constant stress and lying they have become almost innate over the last few years. I am currently suffering from things like anxiety and depression, which gambling has certainly not prevented. it seems as though there is no where I can turn, I cannot bring myself to attend a gamblers anonymous meeting, although I know this is very shallow of me, I suppose it is the last stage, the last gasp for salvation. I want to be able to give up on my own terms using will power. I have tried meditation, but found it tedious, I am in the fortunate position where I don't owe any money, mainly down to luck as I have not been able to attain any for quite some time. I often ponder on where I would be without gambling. but as the years progress, I feel hope slipping away. I just don't want to my life to be filled with nothing.