Rock Bottom

I went to a complete life change with this thought in my head: "If I'm going to risk my life a bit at a time over gambling, I might as well just go all-in for what I dream for as crazy as it might be."

Quite inspiring. I should be doing this now.

Will be in a new working place in 2021, a better one.
I must and should channel all the enthusiasm and time into my new job and attain some level of success.
Also to give more time to my family and things that matter. I'm setting a 1 year goal, to clear off my credit card debt, and by Christmas next year, I want to be in a different situation than all my previous years (i was broke one of the Christmas sometime before due to "you know what")