by uskat » Mon Jun 24, 2019 12:51 pm
1. Playing the tape ALL THE WAY THRU (the tape in my mind.... so I WANT to go, what will happen -- I'll go and not leave like the million other times leaving w/ nothing, but what if I make some GRAND hit winning BIG BIG BIG -- the tape continues -- I'll be obsessed w/ how wonderful it is, how lucky I am, how fantastic g is, and I can't wait until I go back -- I will obsess about going back again and again (prob going back next day!) pulling me away from REAL life, from people, from joy, until I've spent more and more time chasing. Which is really just shoving it all back in for that rush again. it ISN"T about the money! if it was about the money I could stop after that big win )
2. EXCLUSION - life saving the first 90 days. threat of arrest did help me.
3. SUPPORT - family (somewhat) but mostly the GA fellowship.
(lots of online you tube re: gambling addiction, dr. fong, many online resources to understand the chemical / brain component -- took the sting out of lack of control, shame etc. my brain was driving my destruction)