Life spinning out of control! Please Help!

I am not a stranger to addiction, bad consequences and self inflicted pain inside. I have traveled from drug addict to somewhat successful and heading in the right direction to a fast total destruction. When I was using drugs, I would usually go to rehab after being locked up for something small like possession of marijuana or something. I would only on occasion do drugs from opiates, ecstasy and cocaine at a club or party. After a surgical procedure I got hooked on opiates. The opiate addiction took over I got on suboxone and stopped opiates but kept smoking marijuana to this day. Now I’m just a weed smoking gambling addict. I’ll get to that in a few...
II was never really much for hobbies, but eventually I found one and turned it into my career. This particular hobby closely resembles gambling because certain collectibles fluctuate like the stock market. I successfully (sort of) ran the business for about 5-6 years. The only problem was, my business wasn’t very profitable. I had to look for other ways to support myself...having a past in selling weed was never my favorite option once my SECOND HOBBY came in to play which I feel has been a bigger battle that opiates (but then again suboxone can be a crutch - there is no crutch for the debts and pain that was caused by my terrible gambling addiction.
So here’s how it started, a weekend at the local casino. I would usually play blackjack. At first I hated slot machines - that didn’t last long. Before long I was playing Caribbean Stud, 3 Card Poler, Craps, anything. I’m thankful online gambling is not legal here, I would be in trouble if so. I tried to teach myself ways to win easier and studied the games I played. I would play at home just to sharpen my skills. I literally thought “I can WIN, maybe bring down the house!!!”
I would travel to all the local casinos within a hour or two drive from me. Which is about 7 casinos, they are everywhere in Indiana. I live right across the bridge in Kentucky. No problem to drive home

you need to find things in your life that will bring you happiness, distraction and positive thoughts and feelings. Boredom is a killer and so is gambling. You're seeking the wrong kind of stimulation and way to kill time. An addict can't just gamble a little bit as a little leads to a lot sooner rather than later. It's inevitable.

You need a daily plan as well as well as a short term, long term and life one. You can't just meander aimlessly as you will always reap what you sow. Don't be a lost soul and a prisoner which is what you are now. A prisoner to yourself and your mind.

Break free. Fight. It takes time and many steps. Until you understand these words in front of you and actually want to take the advice, then I'm sorry to say your situation won't improve. You have to improve it. Not your situation improve you because it won't my friend.

There are many people like you who are struggling with various aspects of themselves and their lives. Go back to a time when you were happy or things that made you happy that weren't bad or dangerous for you. Do what they were as well as try and implement some new things and changes will happen for the better.

Gambling is $#%^. You can't even talk to people because all you're thinking about is when you're going to gamble next or how much you lost.