Been on here for years now.. been gambling for over 5 years and now im 24.. been working a #######5 part time job.. parents begging me to finwlly go to school.. never rewlly got thwt bad with gambling until recently, just logged on my bank website and saw a nice -25k credit card debt, and another 20k one.. followed by a nice 5000$ overdraft in my only chequings account.. lmao.. i cant do anything but laugh at this point, sports are rigged, i throw down a ten dollar bet fifty times and win, do the same thing with 1000, have the under in a sports game, and what do you know, its 7-0 and i have under 7.5, 2 outs last inning, i called the dude getting a home run from a mile away, hes liyerally playing for nothing down by 7 runs but of course he was going to get a home run, i just lost my last possible 1000 i could lose, and i just laughed.. i dont even care anymore, if i wasnt at home id be screwed completely. . my parents think i have like 80k saved up which is funny considering i make 300 a week, 80 a shift, yet lose 1000 dollars in a day, i wasted another 8 hours working today because i lost 1000, so with my shift i technically only lost 920 yay! Life is so $#%^, i literally cant wait to die at this point.. not sure why i even wrote this, guess i have nothing better to do since im out of money completely to gamble.
-- Sat Apr 28, 2018 12:38 am --
The only thing thats went my way recently are these drugs ive been doing.. they mess with your heart and ive noticed my heart skipping beats a lot at night time.. im just praying for a heart attack or to die in my sleep. Everytime my chest tightens im like oh god please just stop, its so calming when you're finally at peace with everything for once. Debt cant follow me into the afterlife, and even if it goes to my family its whatever, they arent the best of people.
-- Sat Apr 28, 2018 12:41 am --
Death beats trying to pay 50.000 back when youre making 300 a week.. dont even want to know how many years of my life that is just to have back what i should of had ten years ago, haha.