My last bet period

Hi everyone I'm at the end of a long hard road. I thought I was 6 months ago but after 80ish days without a bet and life looking up I fell back in. 3 months and another 15 20k of loses and I finally felt the bottom. I never understood how someone could commit suicide but I've now seen it
I wouldn't and couldn't do that I hope as I am the father of a new baby and an my little 2 year old man. I just mean the thought finally crossed my mind but I refuse that in every way. This addiction is so brutal and controlling it blows my mind. I used to be happy healthy and happy. Now the only time I'm happy is for an hour after I get home to see my family bit mostly after I drink and take sleeping pills before bed thinking of a few hours of peace. I will post more tomorrow of my story but I just wanted to start by setting up an account. I'm also in ga on and off. Now it's on and I will also post here daily. I wish you all a day without gambling have a good night.

Please get yourself excluded from the casino or casinos. PLEASE! You’ve got too much too live for! Talk with me. You can do this!

Hi veenie11 thanks for your reply I really appreciate it. I know I have a ton to lose and I'm working on ways to change my thought patterns and try to get past the urges to gamble. The good news is that I believe I am really done this time. I can't keep on like this. My wife was showing me pictures of when our son was born and he's 2 now I look at least 5 years older if not 8. This disease is horrible and kills you quick. I will no longer give in to the urges to gamble. I wish you well and hope you are doing well.

You don't have to live in hell. You will need help. Get help. As gambling addicts -- we lose ourselves and it is as if we are possessed by the addiction.
It will take some time for your brain to clear and for you to see w/ your REAL eyes.
You have so much to live for. Wishing you the best on this path to a really good life. A life w/out gambling.