BACK AGAIN, and in debt this time.

I've been here for a while, usually just get off and come back when i' want to die basically.

Long story short, i've been addicted to online sports and now even casinos for a few years, not really realizing how much i've lost until my parents have said "wow you must have enough for a house saved up by now"

i only work 35 hours a week, minimum wage job, too depressed for school, turned to gambling

things started looking good, finally won a bit, i said i'd cash out, but after losing 200$ out of 5500 i made, i decided to go all in today and yesterday, the 14,000$ i made, gone, and now i'm even in debt 5000$

i'm 24

the only good thing is minimum wage here went up about 1.50$ as of today..

really want to just die right now, kind of tempted to take a bunch of pills, i've wasted 5 years of my life to this $#%^, i can't be okay with making 400$ a week, when I know i've lost over 50,000$ already..

i keep trying to make it back and I can't

all these online sportsbooks are such a weakness.

i just can't believe, i lost everything again, i've wasted like 5 years of my life, and i HAVE LITERALLY NOTHING.

-- Mon Jan 01, 2018 8:02 pm --

I just don't see how it's possible to get by on 400$ a week knowing i lost 10000x that amount already..

i can't do anything but cry, especially because it'll take a few months to even pay off this debt i accumulated by just blindly betting 5000$

Kitten, you must not chase what you have lost. You will only dig a bigger hole. Instead please think what you have lost as an expensive experience. No matter how much you have you can lose it all.

It’s never too late to make the money back through hard work. Start over, it’s the new year. You can always go back to school, it only takes 4 short years. Graduate at 28, save up for a couple years, then get a house. However you must stop chasing your losses, stop gambling. I have never heard of anyone making money in the long term through gambling.

Remember it’s never to late.

You're 24, very young mate... don't do anything stupid - the first realization that you need to stop hurts, then you have the bitterness stage of looking back, a sick feeling then... you begin to feel more free! trust me.
Do not gamble for a few months and then see how you feel. im 124 days now - i have days sometimes where i don't even think about gambling!

kitten do not loose hope. I yesterday for the first time self excluded and I already feel a sense of regret, coming to this forum and reading the posts of others made me realise how stupid i have been, life is precious dont loose hope please you are far too young. it will take a few years but you will get there ! keep coming back here and one day you will give hope to another lost soul. I am in debt 7,000$. i feel so ashamed of my selfish behaviour reading the posts here has filled me with some hope.

Hello. Thinking about money that you lost only make it worse. I remember myself, looking into my bank account with thousands lost in hours. It keeps triggering us to keep gambling. I recommend you to find GA meeting and tell people how you feel. I started my GF journey when I was 24 so believe we have a lot of time to fix what we made. Try to think that gambling was just a bad investment in business.
Wish you the best, find your way!

Hugs Kitten ...

I'm glad you came back to the forum . We've been where you are and believe it or not , there is a way out . Please look into GA . They offer real life support that can be invaluable .

You are gambling to try and get yourself out of the mess that gambling got you into . That's the warped logic of addiction at work . You will never be able to pay off your debt by gambling simply because the addiction will not let you stop . The proof is in your story .

kittenswift39 wrote:i can't be okay with making 400$ a week, when I know i've lost over 50,000$ already..

You can be OK with making $400 a week when you know that you aren't throwing it all away on gambling . The debt won't go away until the gambling does . That's the reality . Pick yourself up , make your battle plan and start fighting back again . You can't wish this disease away . You have to fight like your life depends on it . Because in many ways , it does .

The only way to get out of this hole is to stop digging . You can do this .

please dont despair! what would take some time might still be worth your whole life ahead of you !
keep coming back here ! join a GA program in a few months you will be strong ! dont be alone ! surround yourself with people all the time. you are a valuable person, believe in it !