The penny has finally dropped

Ive posted on here before under a different name.

I am 23 years old, have alot of potential and have always wanted to do big things, gambling has always given me a rush like no other.Drugs, booze do not come close to what gambling provides me with, ive tried the bookies, online casino, football bets etc and without fail the money goes within the day or if I win big it may take a maximum of 3 or 4 days before its all gone and the funny thing is theirs almost a sense of relief when its gone. How I have been stupid enough to self destruct in this way month by month spunking my paycheck up the walls is a disgrace but heres the thing I got to do!!!

GET ANGRY

any stint of gamble free time in my life has been fuelled by my rage, a tip I got at GA was wake up in the morning, look yourself in the mirror and say "am I some sort of @@@@@@@ ". Calling myself out on my own bollocks that I tell myself, am I going to cry like a baby or start turning the tables on these ###$

Enough of the sob stories "I cant help it" etc, ######6 snap into action like a raging bull!!!!!!!!!!

Day 1

Good for you, yeah get motivated! But don't try to do it on your own. Find a GA meeting in your area for some support.

GA helped me tremendously.

So related to that drive to continue to gamble until all the winnings are gone.
Seems for us, that is the only way to sate the desire. Must burn ALL that fuel for relief.
Strange isn't it?

Suppose it's Just like any good junkie -- I suppose if I were a heroin addict and had a months worth in my drawer I'd use it much faster and more of it, until it was gone. Certainly wouldn't last a month.

Keep posting. Be honest. You may feel alone but you are not. People WILL be amazingly generous with their time and care
Best to you this day