RELAPSE NEVER ENDs please help

I had a gambling addiction for 15 years and I quite last Nov and banned my self from casinos and was 60k in debt. Things were good for about 8 months and this summer I started just buying scratoff tickets and then I started trading stocks. I am in the investment industry so Im around stock trading all day. Well one thing let to another and football season started in September and I started betting football online and then started playing poker. Well 6 weeks later I'm down 5k on football/poker and lost on my stocks today. So I came home tonight and permanently disabled and delete my betting account online and sold all my stocks at market close today. I gamble because I feel so alone my best friend died last year and my cousin died 2 years ago and my girlfriend of 6 years broke up a couple years ago because she was cheating on me. Im not going to tell my parents that I relapsed as they were kind enough to help with some things last year and I feel like I let them down and would never hear the end of it . I feel so alone all the time and have no close friends and nobody talk to, I take vacations by myself and for the last 6 weeks I will drink all weekend long by myself and then gamble online and not talk to anybody the whole weekend. I really don't know what to do I honestly feel like I can never stop gambling it feels impossible and also being in the investment industry doesn't help, also being 60k in debt is so depressing everyday I work so hard and it doesn't matter.i have seen addiction counselors in the past for gambling and it doesn't really help. I am so lost and sad and would apprciate any advice because I do not have a lot of hope right now

Congrats on taking a stand!

Is there a local GA meeting u could attend?

Ive been going now about a month and Ive made some great friends in that time. It really has helped with me being lonely and also address my serious addiction.

Hope things get better!

That's terrible. I feel for you, loneliness is very tough and can make anyone do all sorts of things and go crazy.

You've bad luck. But you have to find ways to turn it around. Not through gambling. That just leads to more problems. And leads to unrest in the mind and soul. It's a drug and it changes people's mentality.

Join a few clubs. Like boxing and gym, and other ones where you will meet people for sure. STay on the right track and good things will happen fast. But know that any time you gamble, your soul will never be at ease.

Get out and about on weekends. Your first task to do should be take a walk, go see a movie and get some food. Suck it up and accept things will be tough for now but they will get better.

Loneliness and isolation are tough. That stuck place.
Depression soon behind....can you get to a GA meeting?
It isn't anything as I imagined it would be. I thought it would be the lowest of the low lifes - and it was the opposite. Incredible people.
Try it?
Meet ups? Look on line -- they have meet ups for ANYTHING! board games, eating out, walking groups
Anything outside helps me --- active is best.
It would be great to develop a friend or two you can pal with. Know that there are people LOOKING for a new friend RIGHT NOW, just as you are, in your town or city. You have much to offer, please be open to it.

I too, have been mostly a loner throughout my life. So I know how it is to be lonely and bored.
I agree that gambling could be an escape from those things, but it doesn't have to be. You have gotten many good suggestions from the prior responses that I was about to mention as well. Yes, go to GA.
Yes, join some clubs where you will have interactions with other humans and perhaps make some friends. Your first mention of buying scratchers had to be a trigger for all that followed. I hope others can see this example and understand why they say that, for problem gamblers and addicts, if they really aim to quit, should not do any kind of gambling, no matter how small or "harmless".....it can be like a small spark that burns a whole forest.....

Gambling addiction leads to isolation as even if you bet in betting shops mostly like I did when I gambled you have little conversation with oder customers as everyone is fixed on watchn da races and sports and trying to win. What awful places betting shops are, dark, smelly, full of tvs and noise, full of staff who wan to tak ur money and cudnt give a $#%^ bout u or how much u lose. Also full of losers who spend hours trying to win money, dey will nver win, instead of living der lifes. I was one of dis losers for many years until in quit gambling for gud in march tis year.
Newaz ders a big world out der and loads of meetups available were u can meet new people and potential friends. First step has to be to leav gambling behind.
I am available to talk if either of you wans to pm me anytime.

I know exactly what you Need to do. You need to do something that makes you feel excited. If you can find this it will change your mood from depressed and despair and hopefully bring you a lot of laughter . Change your focus. Find something you are passionate about, it will challenge you and force you to change your focus. Best of luck.

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Also you could have one person on call whenever you feel the urge to gamble. Think of the closes bond you have. They can be your voice of reason and you are to call whenever you need that voice . If you have that person I would ask them to be that voice. It cost nothi g to make a phone rather than get into financial trouble. No excuses, you have options and resources, us them well.