Ever relapsed after registering in this forum?

by **Aries411** » Mon Sep 04, 2017 1:56 am

Very true NSR, I could not have said it better myself.

After going to therapy and GA for 8 months I thought I knew this addiction and thought "Hey, Im kinda busy so maybe I'll skip GA this week" or "I haven't had any urges for a couple months, perhaps I don't have to drive all the way to therapy" and after the excuses I stopped going to GA and therapy. Things were good and I was gamble free for 3.5 years before I relapsed. It caught me off guard and I was not prepared to combat the unexpected urge. Complacency was what made my mind mentally weak and all those defenses I built in GA and therapy atrophied. I have now learned from that and I work on my recovery almost every day and am now much more mentally strong and prepared than ever.

NewSunRising wrote:I'm glad that you have set yourself goals and it's good to come to the forum when you feel like you are struggling . Writing it out can be helpful and healing .

lookforward wrote: I believe that once I reach the 100 day mark, I'll be safe, and this trigger will be switched off for good.

I truly hope this happens for you , but I warn you to never let your guard down . This addiction can rear its ugly head at any time in our recovery and triggers aren't always stress-related .

Complacency is our greatest danger . There will likely come a time when your addiction will attempt to convince you that you are OK now , the "problem" is fixed and you can gamble in control as long as you follow a bunch of self-imposed "rules" - only with X amount of money , only on certain days , etc .

All of these thoughts are lies , a trap that the addiction lays in hopes that you get lured back in and allow it to control your life again . Every relapse makes it stronger .

I live my life now with this knowledge : My gambling addiction will never die . It sleeps and waits for that one moment of weakness , of complacency . I must never forget that .

wow... this is strong. But it is true. Indeed I have those thoughts a lot frequently than i wanted. And it was thoughts like those that made dig a very large hole in my pocket and in my mind.

I'll take yours and Aries advise into account, and hope i never disappoint you but above all myself!

I've seen my mind drift to weird places when I'm fighting the urges. Yestready i was just thinking... let me just check the sites... I didn't. But it still tempts me...

My life would have been so much easier if i didn't gamble. So immensely easier...

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