Depressed and hooked

This time I lost my own mother's money at the casino. It feels like $#%^. I was already depressed before going, but I thought about the highs from gambling and went back to chase money and those highs. When will this stop? I am definitely hooked and addicted. I try stopping, but there are always the compulsions that come up later on. They seem almost uncontrollable, at least with me.

I don't feel like saying too much. Last time I posted and expressed my struggles with the addiction some guy said bad stuff about my expression and sounded annoyed from me sharing my story, so I'll leave it sweet and short.

Hi badluck
I think that people do understand how you are feeling but perhaps also feel frustrated that the advice given isn't heeded. If you want this to stop you have to be pro active in your recovery. I would say you need to self exclude from the casino as a very minimum. Is that something you feel able to do? Can you do that today? Because I can guarantee once you start fighting back and taking some control you will start to feel better.
And here is one absolute truth that you need to believe, you will never ever get your losses back by continuing to gamble.

Hi BadluckLeavesMeBroke,

You can't fight this addiction alone. You need help.
Please call to the helpline or attend a GA meeting. Take the first step. The rest will come along.

Regards.

Everybody here wants you to quit but we get frustrated like gran said. You seem to have fallen into a pattern where you gamble and lose then feel bad about it then come here and confess. Before I even opened this thread I knew what you were going to say. I still read it and am replying because I'd like to see you quit but we need to be honest about what we see. I've been where you are so I know what you're going through, you're in a bad place and can't see a way out but if you take our advice and self-exclude from that %#&^ing casino you'll be much better off.

I agree with everyone here .

BLLMB , we all want to see you stop gambling . But it take a big effort on your part . It's not impossible , it's just not easy . If you are hoping for a "miracle cure" , I'll tell you right now that there isn't one . It's hard , unpleasant , uncomfortable and downright miserable in the beginning .
If you cannot accept that , if you are not prepared to go through the withdrawals and assaults from the urges , then you will find yourself stuck in the same vicious cycle over and over again .

The worst part is the first few months . Every day that you don't gamble makes you a little bit stronger , it brings a bit more clarity , the daily fight against the urges gets easier and easier to win . But you'll never know that unless you buckle down and make the decision to quit for good .

Your handle BLLMB might convey your view.

That it is just a matter of your "bad luck". Your situation is all a matter of your "bad luck".

I FINALLY could see this for what it was when I realized it would never be enough.
Win or lose, good or bad luck, if I ALWAYS went back I was doomed.
And then it started CONSUMING my life, because that is ALL I wanted to do.

It isn't your bad luck, it's that you need to go back again and again, that is your issue.

if you lose -- you want to go back and get it back (chase)
if you win --- you want to go back and win some more

Can you see that you want to go back for more and more, win or lose -- and how that is a set up for continued and increasing destruction?

Sorry to say you have crossed the line of "normal" into the world of addiction.

Do you want to stop gambling ? Or do you just want to keep gambling and just win? The second won't happen, because you don't stop.

Any thoughts BLLMB?