Gambling made me have manic thoughts, mentally ill

Non stop racing thoughts that wouldn't stop. If only, why did I, I should have, that was when there wasn't just random $#%^ going over and over in my head. I was hit with an explosion I didn't see coming. I wasn't prepared for it. Who is? certainly no young man. I went through pure hell. Sometimes I forget. Xmas time one year, how ######6 depressed and low I was after losing 5k just in a blink of an eye. Gambling robbed me of me.

I say this because I know what you are going through. But it is when, and only when you truly decide that you're not going to walk down the same path and take control of your life that you change the direction you are in and slowly but surely rise and live a good, strong, happy life.

The harsh reality is that you might have to endure a number of years feeling like $#%^ and grinding it out in order to get your life back on the right track. Would you rather be back up living a good, happy and healthy life in 5 years? Or stay on the same path and ###$ the rest of your life up?

Just because it's broken now doesn't mean you should write it off altogether. Or stay in the same place. I know the what if's. I coulda, I shoulda's kill you and haunt you. I used to get so pissed off where I was that I wanted to quit. I was angry. So you turn to what got you there as an escape. but the addiction always get you even if that escape is just to kill some time or bet small. It never stays that way. So you're stuck in the same messed up pattern which led you to where you are. Catch 22.

inevitably gambling makes you a weaker version of yourself, when in actual fact you do it because you want/think it will make you stronger. You do it to get back to where you were or save your sanity/peace of mind. But it always goes the other way. Gambling weakens you, your mind, which is the strongest thing you have.

A Healthy balanced mind is a strong one. Which means, a healthy, balanced, stronger you.

Choose that long term than a ######6 card/sports game in the short and eventually you climb mount Everest. Once you do that, you can reach the ######6 sky.

Now that is winning. Life, and feeling good and enjoying it is worth more than money. Which you will have anyway because you quit gambling and have more time, energy to succeed at work or whatever it is you want to do.

Anyway, a boring life and one that is stress free is better than being suicidal, depressed and tired without a cent.

Ultimately it is you who decides what path you choose. No one else.


No excuses. Just hard work and sacrifice.

ALL THE TIME!

Good thread, House: The thing about gamblers and the way they think is all too familiar to us.
The thought is usually. " gambling got me this low; gambling can get me high again."
It's delusionary, we know, but that's the way it is when you're caught up in that bad spiral.
The hope here is that the ones that come to this forum are really ready to stop forever, or at least try.
I believe each one of us has the power inside to do it......but it's not that simple.
First, a gambler has to REALLY want to stop......not just say it or think so; only to relapse after the pain and misery is forgotten and goes away after some time.....the solid rock hard determination has to be there. It has to be seen as a lifelong battle that we must win.

housealwayswin, l know what you mean by "Gambling robbed me of me". This horrible obsession with the slot machine almost ruin my life and that was all I think about all day long almost like a drug or alcohol addiction even though I have never have a joint or drink more than one glass of wine in my whole life.