I'm in a lot of pain right now

My heart really hurts. I keep borrowing from people I love to fund my gambling in order to chase money to try and avoid an eviction. I've been paying rent at this place for almost two years and I am now at the end of my lease. I am behind a few months and really want to pay them and the remaining months so I do not ruin my renter's history.

My heart hurts because I have lost a lot of money in the last few months trying to chase this rent money. I have borrowed from people close to me. Heck I lost so much in the past month, thousands. Maybe I should just take the eviction. I am so tired from gambling and trying to catch up to my fees. Gambling has just made it worse. My heart hurts a lot. I've been borrowing from people close to me who aren't even rich. I've took out so many high loans from school. I'm about to be evicted soon (but I bet I will go back to the casino at least a couple more times trying to chase the rent for all the months I owe (which is about 5 grand of rent).

I am hurting.

I am sorry you are in such a bad place right now . You need to get help for this addiction . You can't let it continue to ruin you and you can't keep believing that there is a chance of fixing things by gambling . Gambling will never get you out of the mess that gambling got you into .

It's all up to you man . We can sympathize because we've all been there and we can encourage you because we know you have it in you to overcome this but we can't make you stop gambling and we can't make you seek out help in real life .

And you need help in real life . Trust me when I say - it can get worse . And it will , if you don't take action NOW .

Unfortunately from your language I'd guess that it's going to get a lot worse. You've been lying to people and it sounds like that is your plan going forward. When they stop loaning you money you're going to be in so much more trouble that you'll look back at what's happening now and think this was a good time.

That's not to say you don't have options though because you do. You need to start being honest with people and self-exclude from the casino. I think you're at the point now that it's really your only rational option. We can't make you do it of course but we can promise you that it will change your life for the better the moment it happens.

I wasn't going to respond to your thread, because I have mixed feelings about your apparent fatalistic attitude. Your thread title and content seem to cry out for sympathy, but you seem unrepentant and uncommitted to stopping. NSR and Buster are right....you keep going back to try to win it back and it will get worse.

58gambling wrote:I wasn't going to respond to your thread, because I have mixed feelings about your apparent fatalistic attitude. Your thread title and content seem to cry out for sympathy, but you seem unrepentant and uncommitted to stopping. NSR and Buster are right....you keep going back to try to win it back and it will get worse.

I'd also add that even if BLLMB does somehow catch lightning in a bottle and win he'll still end up losing it all back along with whatever else he has.

I don't think BLLMB actually reads replies to their posts, I think they just open a new thread when something worse has happened. I hope I'm wrong though as there is so much good advice which has been posted here and in other threads. BLLMB if your reading this it proves people actually do care about your situation - total strangers on the internet taking the time to try and help you. Believe it or not we do all want to see you recover.

From what I have learnt through my own experience (and reading about others) it seems that there really is no bottom when it comes to gambling addiction - it's a hole as bottomless as you want it to be. What I mean by that is that some people it seems have to lose a chunk of money. Others their career, family, house before they stop. Still others end up living on the streets, in prison or worse still ultimately lose their life.

My point is that as bad as your situation is now, it can and will get worse if you don't stop. Make a decision now that enough is enough, don't let it take one more cent, one more ounce of your time. The past is the past, make a plan to deal with it and move forward. You have lost so much now that any win (as unlikely as that is) is totally pointless and will just lead to more loss as Buster said. Accept that fact and it might help you to quit.

Seek help and reach out to a qualified person to talk to as it sounds like you need some real help.

You're probably right. I've never thought about it but even the screen name is alarming. "Bad Luck" has nothing to do with it. You're broke because you gamble and can't control it. If the game is rigged against you and you lose you're having the exact type of "luck" you should have.

BadluckLeavesMeBroke wrote:My heart really hurts. I keep borrowing from people I love to fund my gambling in order to chase money to try and avoid an eviction. I've been paying rent at this place for almost two years and I am now at the end of my lease. I am behind a few months and really want to pay them and the remaining months so I do not ruin my renter's history.

My heart hurts because I have lost a lot of money in the last few months trying to chase this rent money. I have borrowed from people close to me. Heck I lost so much in the past month, thousands. Maybe I should just take the eviction. I am so tired from gambling and trying to catch up to my fees. Gambling has just made it worse. My heart hurts a lot. I've been borrowing from people close to me who aren't even rich. I've took out so many high loans from school. I'm about to be evicted soon (but I bet I will go back to the casino at least a couple more times trying to chase the rent for all the months I owe (which is about 5 grand of rent).

I am hurting.

Hi BLLMB,

You are in a good age and you have a whole good future ahead of you. Don't throw it away by this addiction. Sound like you are a smart person. Start doing the smart actions.

Smart Actions:
1. Give control of your money to someone you can trust. (Probably could be the hardest decision you ever make in your life.
2. Self exclude from every single casino or betting places.
3. Seek divine help (God) to heal you of your past.

Gambling is NEVER a solution to make money. In fact in the first place, it was never an OPTION.
Keep this in mind ALWAYS. Jot it down somewhere.

This posting also serves a reminder to me.