I am very upset

I love gambling. I work surveillance cameras at a casino and see people lose thousands of dollars everyday but I still gamble. Last night I went to the casino and I had just got paid from work. I took out $200.. lost it.. I was very upset with myself, but then I took out $300 more. I was on my last $50 and managed to win upwards of $1000 making me $500 dollars ahead. I am going on an overseas trip soon and this would have paid for almost everything other than spending money. I should have gone home.. but I stayed for six hours and spent every last penny of that $1000.00. I just can't get over it. My girlfriend is upset with me and it's just terrible.. that $1000 would have helped me out so much but I just couldn't stop. I wish I could go back in time and leave that casino. When I gamble, I am known in my group of friends to always win.. but its because I see people gamble everyday and I know what machines hit. I've won thousands of dollars multiple times but I just cant get over this lose.. I am on the verge of just quitting gambling all together. Although i've won a lot, it's probably not as much as my loses. I need help to take the next step on quitting. How do I quit when it's all around me all the time? How do I cope with my lose?

Welcome Krills ,

I remember when I thought I loved gambling . It turned out that I just hated not gambling . My addiction wouldn't leave me alone until I went and did it , just to shut up the voice in my head .

Do you have a gambling addiction ? That is a question that you have to ask yourself and it's a question only you can answer .

There are people who can gamble and win or lose , walk away with whatever they have in their wallets and be content . There are other people who find that gambling becomes more and more prevalent in their lives until they spend much of their time thinking about or doing it .

If you decide to quit , then I think that based on your story about playing it all back , it would probably be a good idea . But the choice must be yours . This is a progressive disease - the more you gamble , the worse it's hold over you gets .

Whatever you choose to do , please educate yourself on gambling addiction . It will give you valuable insight as to whether or not this is happening with you . That is a way better method than
" keep gambling and find out " .