I am now at rock bottom

If you've been following my posts, you know that I pretty much lost everything. All my credit cards have been closed, I have lost bank accounts, I have maxed out on all my loans, I have borrowed from friends and family, and I have lost it all.

Being a gambling addict, of course I took one more shot at it. I got my hands on some money any way I could and took it to the casino to try and chase money for rent so I wouldn't be evicted and ruin my rental history, but I lost it all.

Words can't explain how low I feel right now. For some reason part of me strongly felt I would win, but I lost it all of course. I realize I am rarely ever up when I go gamble. Most of the time I am there I am chasing what I lost from that trip alone. Of course every once in a while I will go on streaks and win some, but no matter how big the wins were, I never got close to all I have lost.

The bottom line is that I am at rock bottom. I am broke and sick to my stomach. Knowing that I ruined my rental history hurts my heart. Knowing I let my family down, my soul hurts. My head hurts. It all hurts. I don't know where to go from here.

I'm unemployed, I have no money, all of my financial accounts have been closed, I just don't know what to do next.

I am sick. I feel the empty numbness, the sickness, the lowness, the feeling of being beaten up, the tiredness, the hopelessness. I feel so low.

Badluck You need to pick yourself up. Seek help asap. I would go to you rental office or call who you rent from and tell them that you have come upon hard times. Did you put down a security deposit? If it is 2 months they may let you catch up by using one of the months.

No entitlements thats what every single person wants in the USA if that is where you are,you can do some jobs like dog walking,personal assistant and many other things to bring in some needed income right away. As long as you have a good background and checks will come back clean. Also you could approach the casino you spent the most money in andsee if they have a position you could do. A friend had a gambling problem here in PA and the Casino management noticed this. She had a full time union job,they asked her to rtain to be a cashier so she could not gamble there any more.

I wish you luck I know the feeling I am trying to stop before I hit rock bottom. A new day a new way.

That is some good advice Peepers ...however -

peepers2016 wrote: Also you could approach the casino you spent the most money in andsee if they have a position you could do. A friend had a gambling problem here in PA and the Casino management noticed this. She had a full time union job,they asked her to rtain to be a cashier so she could not gamble there any more.

While it may have worked out for your friend , I would highly advise against this . Exposing ourselves to gambling only keeps it alive in our minds and it can actively undermine our recovery . And while one may be prohibited from gambling in the casino that they work at , there is still no shortage of other casinos to go to , not to mention online gambling . It is far too risky , in my opinion .