It's been 3 years.. Will the war ever end?

Hi all,

I have created a post here a few years ago promising I'd quit, but of course, I couldn't like so many others. I am back again to share my stories and hopefully also find a solution to this madness..

Intro
Ever since I hit 18, I started to try out gambling.

I realized that it is truly a devil's game, you can never beat it. The devil gives you an opportunity to experience heaven once at a great price of selling your soul. With every tick of the clock, the devil pulls your soul deeper and deeper into hell, where the core of its very being lies.

I have once made it up $10,000, but slowly lost it all over time. It only goes downhill from there. I had next lost a staggering amount of $30,000 over a span of 3 painful years. It was all the savings that my parents had kept for me in my younger days including some part-time job money.

I have gotten into and out of debt too many times for me to remember. The past 3 years have just been so sick, and I can't believe what I have done. Even though I have tried to quit many times, I have always returned after a few months.

Time heals everything, whether it is good or bad. We lose that important and painful feeling of losing over time, only to return when boredom sets in. It's a never ending cycle.

Fortunately, I landed a job after I graduated recently at 21 years old. It pays me about $40,000 a year, which is really good for my age. It is really a blessing for me, however, it could just as easily be a curse if I were to lose that large amount of money.

I'm very depressed at this point. How do we exactly quit or stop this madness? It's as if god is purposely erasing our memories so that we would commit the very same mistakes over and over again.. I currently have to tackle $9,000 in gambling debts and $8,000 in student loans..

Problem Cycle

Stage 1: Lose money.
Stage 2: Chase money.
Stage 3: Lose even more money.
Stage 4: Attempt to quit forever.
Stage 5: Boredom sets in and brings you back.
Stage 6: *back to stage one..*

jjack,

I am sorry that you are still experiencing this addiction. It seems at times to take hold of our rational minds.

During this time of gambling, has anyone bailed you out? That tends to keep the addiction going.

I hope that you find peace, and a life of prosperity. Both of those things are difficult when a person gambles to any extent. So I hope that you find a way to, a day at a time, stay away from gambling.