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You're not alone Eddy . All of us have been sucked in and caught in the same trap . We're not bad people . We're good people with a bad disease . There is no quick , easy fix for addiction and I personally believe , there is no "cure" .

All we can do is decide how we want to live and do all we can to make it happen . It's that basic , but it's not always that simple .

You can do this . Set up your roadblocks , talk to someone you trust and drag the gambling problem out into the open where it can't hide . Make a plan to distract yourself from the urges when they come on and look to your future for motivation .

My girlfriend already knows that I have a problem, and she knows that I have debts, I told her everything just before Christmas after losing all the money I could get. And no, I don't think that I am a good person, I have done a lot of illegal things to fund my addiction but at least I haven't harmed anyone but myself.

Addiction changes us . I have never done anything illegal to fund my addiction but thoughts along those lines came into my head on more than one occasion . So unlike my true nature that I was shocked and disgusted with myself .

Had I not committed to recovery , I may have gone down that path . I'd like to think I wouldn't have but my addiction made me into a liar , so why wouldn't it eventually make me into a thief ?

Get the addiction out of your life and you will rediscover that you are a good person when the compulsion to gamble isn't driving you to feed it by any means possible .

I did something that I was ashamed of while in the casino years ago. A lady walked in front of me and dropped her slot ticket. I waited till she was gone and picked it up, hoping I could used it to chase my losses, good thing it was only a few cent. Under normal circumstances outside the casino environment, I always did the right thing. I could not believed what gambling did to me, it was a wake up call.