Hi Lookforward,
Thank you so much for the message. There is definitely some comfort in knowing that I am not alone. Congratulations on the steps that you have taken and for getting to the point where you are. We all know that is not easy, so having two weeks under your belt is definitely an accomplishment. Losing something or someone in life is never easy. I was desperate to just plug the void that I felt, But I realize that I was isolating myself and actually just making things worse. Well, I don’t know if that is the “new year” or if I have just finally had some reality slap me in the face, but yesterday I took a hard look at what I have been doing to myself and really did not like what I saw. I know that I have been hiding from the world and I have decided that I don’t want to do that anymore. I’m robbing myself of living my true life and want to change. Today I looked up therapists in my insurance plan, I think it may be good for me too have some one on one therapy. I know that I need to be accountable to someone in order to be successful, and I feel like that may be a strategy for me. One day at a time. I am not at the casino, and I usually would be so I’m happy about that.