by NewSunRising » Thu Jun 22, 2023 1:54 pm
Bravo BillyHope !
We're really proud of you and you should be proud of yourself too . Gambling is one of the hardest addictions to overcome and you're doing great . Stay strong and it will only keep getting better . Here's what my timeline looked like :
1-6 months : Man , was it rough . I was constantly fighting my urges , searching for and employing every distraction I could come up with , altering my previous routines to avoid encountering the casinos and friends that I gambled with . I spent a lot of time at home , mostly because I was broke and also I was afraid to have money .
6-12 months : It started getting easier . The urges , which used to be constant and unrelenting , began to slow down . The intensity varied , from really bad to pretty easy to fight off . I experienced increasing moments where I realized I hadn't had the urge to gamble in a couple days . As time went on , it stretched into weeks without an urge.
12-18 months : The periods in between gambling urges became longer and longer . Months would go by before I thought about gambling and the urges became weaker and weaker . They were still popping up but came on as random thoughts that were easy to dismiss instead of overwhelming compulsions that I had to actively fight off . I started to recognize the situations and feelings that triggered them .
18-24 months : The urge to gamble is no longer an urge . It's powerless to compel me now . I'm wise to the lies and I understand in the moment why I'm getting those intrusive gambling thoughts . I address the cause now and ignore the addiction's pathetic attempts to suck me back in .
24 months to present : I feel ...normal . Like I did before I ever even thought about gambling ( I was in my 50's the first time I gambled in a casino ) . I don't "miss" gambling and I have no interest in gambling again , the same way I had no interest in gambling before my years of addiction happened . I might get a gambling thought out of the blue once or twice a year if I'm in an extremely stressful situation . It comes and goes in the blink of an eye . Zero impact .
This is how my journey to recovery has progressed so far and I understand that it's not over . I'm on it for life but that'a not a bad thing . My awareness that I cannot gamble is no different than my awareness that I cannot drive a car blindfolded . That may sound silly but it's the same level of acceptance. It's also the same level of risk . It's not even worth considering .
You'll get there BillyHope . It's not an easy road but it's the one that leads to freedom . Keep going !