Gay Humiliation fetish?

Does anyone else have this fetish? I'm not gay but I like the humiliation of people thinking that I'm gay. There were two key events that created this fetish for me. First, when I was bullied in school by several boys as a teenager they made me approach beautiful girls and tell them that I was gay, the bullies said that if I didn't do this they would beat me up so I did what they told me to do.

And later on when I started college I was very nervous in social situations and there was this one time when I was talking to a girl student and my thoughts got confused and as I was telling her a story about a male friend of mine I made the mistake of calling him my "boyfriend" and in an instant I realized that I had just confessed to being gay even though I wasn't really gay. I saw the look on her face when she knew the meaning of what I had just said and I felt totally humiliated and I was too embarrassed to make any attempt to correct my mistake so for the rest of that Semester I accepted that I would be considered gay in that class. And I knew that the girl quickly told other students about it because a few days later they were looking at me differently. The other embarrassing aspect of this that I was aware of at the time was that I only weighed about 125 pounds and I had timid not very masculine body language so I'm sure that people assumed that I was the bottom in the gay relationship and that my larger real man boyfriend was banging me.

Ever since those events happened I get sexually aroused at the thought of people thinking that I'm gay.

No one else has this fetish? I don't even have to go looking for these situations they just find me. A few years ago my father was cleaning out the basement of my family's old home and he told me there was old furniture down there that he was going to throw out but he decided that I might need it some day when I have a husband, yes he said "husband" not wife, I just sat there speechless and didn't correct him, he was putting me into the role of a typical woman or gay man who would of course have a husband in the future. My mother had to come into the room to correct him by saying "You mean wife" and then my father said "excuse me, my mistake". The same thing happened with my grandfather a month ago and again my mother had to correct him. I won't defend myself in these situations because I enjoy the humiliation.

I am uncomfortable with that being labelled humiliating, to be honest. I appreciate not all societies and cultures are really up to speed yet with the concept that it's OK to be gay. But I don't really get it myself. Why would it matter at all if anyone thought you were gay.

Ada wrote:I am uncomfortable with that being labelled humiliating, to be honest. I appreciate not all societies and cultures are really up to speed yet with the concept that it's OK to be gay. But I don't really get it myself. Why would it matter at all if anyone thought you were gay.

Homophobia is still the norm among males in most parts of America especially in the South where I grew up.