Bullying as a fetish?

So pleased to find this forum. Bullied at school (who wasn't) but then through my early adult life often by younger guys, some much younger. Such a rush of excitement; a total turn on for me. Now, I trawl the net for forums or stories describing younger brothers bullying their older brothers. Stronger, more muscular, mind games, humiliation. I can't get enuf, often returning to re-read favourite sites. I'm a manager of staff; I'm the leader of my team, but I have to keep this dark secret!

God yes. This is my biggest fetish. There is something so darkly beautiful about a person being cast off from a group, laughed at, having their ego trampled. I think, if you are bullied, it stays with you, for better or for worse. And though I think this fetish makes relationships way more difficult and sometimes I hate myself for it, it is at least a big improvement from the shame I used to feel as a teenager. I think this fetish is a way for people to have control over their lives again.

I kind of have a fetish for bullying, too. When I see an attractive girl getting bullied it's arousing. I don't imagine myself as the bully, but maybe rescuing and seducing her

Getting bullied myself isn't something I in any way want, however.