My cast fetish

My fetish is casts. I'm a straight 22 year old male.

I believe my fetish stems from a bondage/bdsm fetish which I discovered first. I'm submissive so like the restriction of restraints. Casts seem to be the ultimate version of this. I've never broken a bone, at most I dislocated my little finger playing football. I've had a few friends I remember in casts but before I discovered the fetish.

My concern comes with how much I have become obsessed with casts. I've collected quite a few pictures and videos of bondage and casts (about 10000 pictures of casts both medical and recreational) over the past years. But it was only recently I got to experience my first proper cast. My parents went away monday to friday so I ordered some supplies of the Internet and applied a long leg cast.( toes to hip) I loved the experience but I'm desperate to have another. To the point were daily I'm thinking about different ways to break my leg or my ankle. I'm trying to stop these thoughts reminding myself that I only want the cast not the broken bones. But one day I'm sure ill do it. I just don't want too.

Pretty much nobody knows about the fetishising let alone these unnerving thoughts. I understand my fetish isn't bad but I don't like these thoughts.

I am pretty shy in my life. I have my friends but I spend the majority of my day in my bedroom. I'm still a virgin and I think it's because of this fetish I don't want my friends to find out and think I'm strange and never talk to me again, Or not be able to perform for a girlfriend because casts or bondage aren't involved.

I'm sure you don't need to be told this but ... probably best to not break a limb for sex reasons. It would be painful, expensive, super inconvenient, and probably not as enjoyable as you think it will be.

There is, as you said, nothing wrong with your fetish. Your friends don't need to know about it -- why would you tell them? -- and even then I don't think it's really that strange. Maybe you could find someone else who enjoys casts and share that with them. The internet is wonderful for that. Or just start picking up chicks from the ER

If your thoughts are intrusive and disturbing then I am sorry. Though I think the easiest way to reduce them would be to grow more comfortable with your fetish (It's not like you can get rid of it ...). Even if it isn't for sexual reasons, getting in contact with your fellow cast fetishists would be very helpful -- or perhaps even just a related group (immobilisation comes in many forms ... have you seen those vacuum-sealed latex cubes?).

Best of luck!