Is living a normal life possible with a fetish?

I have what I think is a rare form of a transformation fetish (attraction to people becoming their best physical self through age regression, weight loss, muscle building) but I'm fairly repulsed by intimacy. I've tried dating but always run away when anything sexual occurs. It's making me miserable and I feel like it's keeping me from getting close to people on an emotional and physical level. I don't know what to do and I haven't found any relatable information on the internet. Please help.

I could be wrong, but it sounds like the repulsion or fear of intimacy is causing you more problems than your fetish. Is it just sex and physical intimacy that repels you? Or are you also repelled by emotional intimacy (e.g. friends or partners trying to get close to you)?