Dear all,
Thank you for sharing your stories </3
My spouse heard voices twice but he said that he is certain that they are not from his head. I began photographing hourly for him. Today he first requested video call then just a video, unfortunately my file didn't go through until I got home, but it was still time-stamped. NOTHING is enough, he refused to tell me what happened except that "time will tell", and threatened to leave again.
He believes in conspiracy theories, but his idea of solution is to kill all the bad guys
He also thinks that someone is messing with him in this building, which, in all likelihood, can be true. Honestly, I just think he is easily triggered, but as a scientific person, I cannot rule out what has not been disproven. When I was considering the possibility of "recording", this seemed like a likely hypothesis that would explain multiple things. He is also legally involved with someone else, and that person can, for all intents and purposes, have connections in this neighbourhood. Last but not least, he thinks someone in this building plays the same game that he does is involved, and showed me the same "bass" (supposedly game background music) from outside. I heard something, but I am not great with listening, so it is hard for me to discern one way or the other.
With his other conditions, I thought he was being abusive before, I now realized that he is traumatized with little coping skills.
He threatens to kill me and the adulterer if he catches me---which is never going to happen as that person isn't me. I can't talk to anyone without them thinking that this is abusive or he is worried that they will take away his guns. (I think his solution is to vow to kill us without guns... does that really make a difference to the professionals/ gun agency?) I do support gun rights.
He does not like medications in general due to their side effects. He finally plans to see a psychotherapist (for depression?) but he does not plan to address this. I am not sure how car accident insurance works.
In addition to sharing the commitment to the vow, I also believe in miracles.
I sobbed the entire afternoon reading your posts, pitying myself, I guess.
A part of me almost wish that someone IS messing with him, or this is all a spiritual attack. While I pray that he will never suffer severer forms of delusions, I also pray that I will have your strength and grace to hold onto him and our marriage.
I have spent the last two years of counselling on how to cope with him, this week I will spend my last sessions on something else. There are two more marital/ relational resources I plan to access.
I wonder if support groups will take me when he doesn't have a diagnosis.