narcissist boyfriend

Hi everyone,

This is the first time I have ever done this, but I need to talk to someone. I am so suicidal right now because of my narcissistic boyfriend. I don't know what to do. He has cheated on me in the past and I have major trust issues. He also has trust issues. He has not come home in 3 days, and I asked if he is with another woman he totally freaks out and says he wants to break up because he can't be accused of cheating and I am never going to let it go. (Even though I am trying to trust him again and not say these things but it's hard when he doesn't come home and is actually finding it a game to not tell me where he's at) he then says to me last night " I think you went to the bar to see another guy" while I am at home begging him to come home. It's literally so ###$ up and I am seriously going mental over him I wish I wanted to leave him but for some reason I still love him can anybody relate?

Hi Sarah

I'm sorry that you're struggling so much with this- I don't think you're alone in dealing with these kinds of things in your relationship.

Please reach out for some help in 3D if you are not feeling you can stay safe. We don't have any professionals here- Psychforums is a peer support forum. But you will find plenty of people with similar experiences.

Please keep safe- sending you hugs if you'd like some and please do reach out for some extra help with your local services.

Lily