doc terminated me due to factitious disorder

HI everyone,
I'm new to this whole forum, unfortunately I see I could be posting on a lot of the forums on this website. I suffer from dysthymia with bouts of major depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, anorexia and factitious disorder. I'm embarrassed to admit that I have factitious disorder but I'm hoping that by being part of this forum now will help me to understand myself better and to get myself to right kind of help. I hope to be able to help others on here also...to not feel so alone. We can all help each other right? I'm embarrassed to say but I'm a fairly young person and have suffered from this disorder for more than 1/2 my life. Last week, while going through a major depression, my family physician wrote me a letter and handed it to me at our appointment. It was a letter stating that trust has been broken between us and he can no longer be my family physician. I have 30 days to find a new one, which is next to impossible where I live. He didn't state it in his letter but he verbally told me it's because of the factitious disorder that he can no longer trust me. I guess I don't blame him, but mostly I blame myself for not being totally upfront with him. I have found lately, that the more depressed I get the more I get myself into trouble with the factitious disorder. I have multiple health issues and need a family physician in order to get the prescription medications I'm on. Has this happened to any of you, that your family physician has terminated you as a patient because of this disorder? What steps did you take to try to rectify it? Did anything help? He made it clear to me that he made up his mind, and nothing I can do or say will change his mind. I feel to blame, that it's my fault this happened, I should have known better...it just got out of control (the disorder) and the more I webbed myself into the lies the worse I felt, the worse I felt the more I tried to keep the lies up. I feel totally lost now. I've lost my biggest support system out there. This is my 1st post here, thanks for listening.

Hi and welcome

I dont have FD but I have come across quite a few ppl with it now and I dont think this is an uncommon choice made by a Dr in this situation tho it is difficult for you of course. Are you getting any help with your FD behaviour? Sounds like it is a complicated situation for you to be dealing with and one that could use some specialist input. Have you managed to find another Dr as that sounds like it is also a priority for you in terms of prescriptions. I suspect that it may be tough to do so tho. Perhaps if you are seeking help for the FD this will help a Dr be more likely to take you on. I hope that by keeping talking we can help you here too.

Hugs

Cracked

Are you getting any treatment for depression? Medication or counseling?

I'm sure that you can get another doctor, even if you live in an area where that's difficult. It's not true that it's impossible to get any other doctor.

But you also may be able to get your doctor back if you agree to do certain things...get treatment for depression, get into intensive counseling, etc.

It is absolutely typical for the lies to ramp up right along with the depression. Depression often carries with it an insatiable need for sympathy and attention.

Why? There's an internal belief that the attention will fix the depression.

It doesn't work(or it only works temporarily) and every time the depression comes back the habit gets more entrenched. It gets like an addiction. The only time the person has momentary relief from the depression and anxiety is - when they're lying. That's how it perpetuates itself.

The key is to treat the depression, and to get counseling to change the tendency to lie.

If you can accept help for the depression, I truly believe you can learn to be more truthful. I think you can do it.

artistic4 wrote:HI everyone,
I'm new to this whole forum, unfortunately I see I could be posting on a lot of the forums on this website. I suffer from dysthymia with bouts of major depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, anorexia and factitious disorder......