To my Linn.

Linn, beloved, I find words to make this song, to speak to you as I may not. You might forgive me one day of what I have done to Moon. She was mostly willing, but I know you do not stand for it.

Oh love -
would you come outside
and let me taste you
and tell you my lies

Promising it'll be okay
Saying this is the only way
and as it should be -
and could you explain to me
why I just don't know
anymore
I just don't know
any more

My scars -
you'll trace them once again
Our love's record and
all left unspoken
written upon this skin

Promising it'll be okay
Saying this is the only way
and as it should be -
and could you explain to me
why I just don't know
anymore
I just don't know
any more
 
Remember that night
I showed you the road
less travelled by
which led us

someplace it was okay
Yours is the safest way
and as it should be
and could you explain to me
why I just don't know
anymore
 
To find myself again I
tread to path's end
to lay and to bed (it
makes me the whore) 

oh, I just don't know
where I am going
any more 

But love -
would you come outside
and let me taste you
and tell you all my lies
once more

Magdella a'Lilit

You have hurt me, Ell.
And I am crying.
It will take time to forgive you.

In Light,
Linn

I'm very sorry to hear that you are hurting Linn. Let me know if there's anything I can do.

Thank you, dear, that is most kind.
I am sad, and somewhat angry at my Ell, but it will pass in time.
A long time, I think, but I will heal.
Now I feel a shade of myself, but my Light will return, one day.
Thank you again.

In light,
Linn

I hope everything will be okay soon, I love to help if I can do anything

Amber

Thank you, sweet child.
Your kindness has helped me.
I will be okay, I just mourn for Moon, and I am sad for Gem who has lost her love.
And I am frustrated at my Ell, to do this thing that is wrong.
In light,
Linn

Moon was made a lesson in absolution. I do not regret acting thus, but it wounds to know I have upset you, beloved. You know better than most I have no light. I am the absence of it. Or more plainly, evil. I expect nothing less of myself.

It is written in stone, beloved.
Magdella a'Lilit

Everyone has light, you can shine out light like the sun, reflect light like the moon, or absorb light like a black hole, but one way or another we all have some kind of light. If you are pure evil, why even bother telling?

"it wounds to know I have upset you", someone who'd be the total absence of light would not say that, someone who's evil would just not care. I don't care what you are, I believe there is something good inside of you.

To be a'Lilit is to function without light. I was a'Lilit, the cultish queen, from the first breath until this present one. Darkness is not broken without light. Ah, Linn is the light, as is my archangel. I seek them for the counsel, and of course I delight of them in the bed. Alone, I am knife and hunger and blood and sacrifice and lust. The light is foreign. The Gemini twins say I lack the balls to betray the darkness that fills me. I laugh. I am a'Lilit, I wear the balls as necklaces. I am as I will be. Perhaps I have the capacity for goodness; it is a rare turn. Some times I would love, more often I am brutal.

Magdella a'Lilit