Controlling them...

I haven't been 'officially' diagnosed with it yet though I pretty much am without the doctors signature on a piece of paper...

The other night one of mine decided to do something that I never wanted done. It sort of destroyed mine and my girlfriends relationship and it destroyed a couple of friendships.

I just need advice on how to control them. Most of the time I can but when I am stressed, depressed, or just not myself they play up and it's like I have no control over them.

I've had two since 8 because of a bad past, and the others have been created either by myself or the oldest two because we feel so alone. We have friends, family and stuff but still...

They disappeared two years ago but decided to come back after a mental break down a few days ago.

The thing is I do not want to get rid of them this time. I just want to be able to control them better.

I talk to family and friends about this but they will NOT believe me until they are given evidence of the doctors signature on the diagnosed papers... I do have a couple of people that believe I have this and know I have this exact disorder... My girlfriend has exactly the same thing so it's easy to talk to her about it. But yeah.

I have tried getting counseling but they have a 6-8 week waiting list and I can't wait till then in case something happens like it did the other night.

I just want to know how others control theirs. It doesn't help that my girlfriend ends up in hospital five times in the past two weeks. It brings more added stress on me and makes them even worse.

The worse thing is the doctors who can assess me cannot do it until I am referred to them by family.

FB92 wrote:I have tried getting counseling but they have a 6-8 week waiting list and I can't wait till then in case something happens like it did the other night.

The smart action in this situation would be to get on the waiting list. Then call periodically to ask about being seen sooner if there is a vacancy. Keep looking to get help sooner.

FB92 wrote:The worse thing is the doctors who can assess me cannot do it until I am referred to them by family.

Are you a minor? If your situation gets bad enough, you may want to start taking steps to become an emancipated minor.