For the littles

Hi Everybody,

We just got back from visiting Host's mom. I stayed in my castle with really really bright green flags because they are the best at keeping me safe from her. I don't like her very much and I don't think anybody else does either. Not even Host but he has to go or he will feel guilty. I don't feel guilty. I feel scared. Too many triggers live in that house.

Iain took really good care of us. Colin made sure we were always safe from bad things happening. Even Host helped because he listened to Iain about staying safe and coming home soon. We're home now!!!! And we don't have to go again for a long time!!!

Evan

HI Evan and everyone else!

Poor you. I hate hosts mom. but lucky we don't have to see her anymore. Not often anyways. I think it has been more than 3 years, but i lost track because i want it to be forever.

Im sorry you have to go back to that house. That would be awful.The parents divorced and don't even live in the same town anymore so that is good. I Hate the hometown.

Bright green flags are cool. The new T asked me about what my safe place was and I told her about the castle I built a while ago and was waving to you. She said to put lots of things in it that I like and importantly have a nice comfortable place to sleep a dreamless sleep. I put a hammock but I was told by Sam that the swinging didn't help the dissociation so I will have to put a nice bed. I am thinking a pile of straw because I always dreamed of running away and living in a barn with the animals. she says it is important to rest after coming out in therapy.

Does your nice T let you contact her between sessions? My old T did but this new T hates email messages and has a very firm rule. I am having trouble with this. So I bought some cards at the dollar store and I asked everyone to write down what they want to talk to her about. It is not really working yet but I hope it does. I really don't want to make her mad by emailing her when she doesn't want to.

Do you like your home? It sounds like you do because you are happy. I love my house too. It is the longest we have lived anywhere since the body was 12. My old T said this was significant. It really is my home now. I feel safe there most of the time.

I am worried about something with this new T. It feels like she knows what she is doing. I am worried we will become dysfunctional because after the session the day and the next day were gone. We can't have no productivity and are responsible for a lot of things. I want to work on some issues but I don't want the ones who work with the outside world to get upset if we are too overwhelmed. That's why I will only use my hammock when it is safe to do so.

I hope you are all doing well!! (And Maya that you had fun making the faces - Johnny loves to be silly too. Me too )
Lizzy

Hi Lizzy,

Our T asks us to email between sessions because she is interested in what we think about things. She always writes back. Sometimes she asks us a question to think about. It helps us to write stuff.

And we have some bad days after T too. But that's what the emails are for. Host says we have to stay high functioning. It's important.

I'm glad you have a neat castle too!

Evan

Hi everybody
Big B here.

I am worried about little b because she has been hiding for a long while. maybe a month or so.

do you have any ideas what could help bring her back around? I can't ever remember li'l b staying gone so long.

IainEtc wrote:And we have some bad days after T too. But that's what the emails are for. Host says we have to stay high functioning. It's important.

thanks evan. Your post makes me a bit sad because I am not sure I can handle not having contact with the T. Sam and I posted another thread about it. Sam's worried too about that limitation.

IT IS SOOO FRUSTRATING!!!

I was proud because I found a way to not contact her. But I am wondering if doing that is just meeting her needs and not ours. And so how do we deal with this. WHY IS NOTHING EASY

BeccaBee maybe just let lilb just be. You know maybe she is fine. usually when littles are upset EVERYONE KNOWS!


lizzy

BeccaBee wrote:do you have any ideas what could help bring her back around? I can't ever remember li'l b staying gone so long.

Is there anyone she is close to on the outside? Maybe if they try speaking with her it would help.

Hi littleB,

If you want to talk to us we'd like that. People are worried you're not ok. You are my friend and I remember you.

Evan

thank you evan. you are my friend and I remember you.

nobody listens to me and I am mad about it. so they can just do everything without me since nobody ever listens even though I am important they think I don't matter. poo on them.

thank you for being my friend.

Welcome back LilB. It may not mean much, but we will listen to ya. We as in us here on this forum.

Hi littlebee,

You're BACK!!! That's wonderful! I missed you. I'm sorry nobody listens to you. That's stupid of them because you are smart. Thanks for still being my friend.

Evan