For the littles

I am not a little, but I wanted to post for Carter. He was going to come out, but one of our kittens attacked us today, just recently, and it scared him. He has a very low pain tolerance. Right now Ally is comforting the littles to get them to not be scared. It is just Host and I out for now. Carter says that you did not scare him or the rest of the littles with your talking. He also says that he is not good at climbing either because the body is too big to figure out how to climb. In our inner world, he is still a nine year old boy.

He is happy that you think that he is a real boy even though he does not have a real boy body. Seven is a good age for a little. Even if you are not actually seven, whatever age you are is a good age. Stealing is wrong, but most cannot help it. Host use to steal too. You are not the only one that steals. TW stands for trigger warning. That means that the topic could be triggering to some. A trigger is something that makes another person switch, feel awkward, or do not like. You do not have to do everything she says, you are your own person. You are allowed to do what you want, as long as it does not harm the mind or the body in any way.

Soule

Kyttin wrote:I am not a little, but I wanted to post for Carter. He was going to come out, but one of our kittens attacked us today, just recently, and it scared him.

So nice of you to reply! I'm sorry for Carter, is he okay now? Maybe the kitten thought it was playing or was scared too?
I feel a little sad because I want to do so many things but can't. I want to dress like a fairy, have my own doll already and I want building blocks, those that are like big legos, but we have nothing like that! But Icecream says that I should not be whiny 'cause we have many toys already. There's a big doll that is almost perfect, but I think it's someone else's. Most people don't talk to me at all, but anyway.
Do you like fire? I'm scared of fire, but Icecream likes it. I try to be my own person more now!
TW!!! But now Icecream says that in the basement there's a bad man named Skull in our language and I need to be with her or Skull comes out!

Winter

-- Fri Jul 04, 2014 7:39 am --

I'm sorry that I said it. I don't want anyone to worry about me now, so just so you know, I don't really believe that Skull thing. I only believed it for maybe one second!
Winter

Hi again. I am doing better. The kitten was scared and angry. I wish I could do things that I want to do, but the body is too big or not good enough to do the things I want to do. No one wants to talk to me either and I'm not really allowed to talk to other people. I don't know everyone in our system, but those that I do know don't really talk to me either. Fire is scary. Host doesn't care that I think that it is scary. She likes to play with it. It is okay that you said that. I don't really understand that much so I'm not scared or stuff like that.

Are you still good, Carter? I feel very tired today. And guess why? Because the hosty-manager tried to speak to Icecream forever, but accidentally spoke to me, and then I said all those things to Icecream and she didn't even answer. But she drew a picture and at first she wanted to put it here, but the watercolor dried badly and the paper went wrinkly and she didn't want to put it here anymore, but I will, because it's her fault that she didn't speak. I think the picture is a little bit scary, so sorry if you think so too:

-Winter (and Icecream)

After fireworks, I was upset, but I am all good now. Happy to be out again without fears. It is a good picture. I still have never done it. What do you do? I see that it makes colors on paper, but I don't know what else. It isn't scary but I don't understand it. I can see it's a person, but anything else I don't know.

With watercolors you have like different circles of color and a brush and water. Then you put the brush in the water, then on the color circle, 'cause the color only comes off with water, and then paint on the paper and then do the same thing for a different color. You should try it if you can get watercolors! Do you ever draw with something else? I don't think I draw... I can't remember, weird feeling. Maybe I should too.
Icecream's drawing is a weather girl 'cause it has raincloud hair and sun-eyes and rainbow-eyebrows. She said it means: have a happy day!. I think it's a little bit too red - too much red is scary, 'cause I had a nightmare where I went into a red room, then the whole room started to shake and become flimsy and felt like it will become smaller and smaller around me. It was so red that it was like glowing!
-Winter

There is too much red. I see it now. I also looked at the picture again and I can see it now. I'll have Ally ask Host for watercolor stuff. It sounds like fun. I want to do something fun, but no one is allowed to see me...I want to be real. I want to be a little boy in a boy body. No crying, I'm a boy, no crying. Boys don't cry. Why can't I be a real boy? I can't help but cry, no crying. Have you felt this way? Like you're not real? I feel like it now...I want to be real, so bad. Why can't I be real?

Kyttin wrote:There is too much red. I see it now. I also looked at the picture again and I can see it now. I'll have Ally ask Host for watercolor stuff. It sounds like fun. I want to do something fun, but no one is allowed to see me...I want to be real. I want to be a little boy in a boy body. No crying, I'm a boy, no crying. Boys don't cry. Why can't I be a real boy? I can't help but cry, no crying. Have you felt this way? Like you're not real? I feel like it now...I want to be real, so bad. Why can't I be real?

I thinks yer real an boys can too cry. Everybody crys somtimes. Is nod a bad thing ta cry. If sombody told you thad then they weren't bein very nice at all and I thinks its a lie thad people tell thad boys can't cry cause everbody gots sad feelins somtimes an thad makes people cry. I somtimes feel sad cause we don have a little body but I know thad even if other peoples can't tell, thad I'm a real little girl an I hope you can feel like a real little boy soon.
-Lo

Kyttin wrote:There is too much red. I see it now. I also looked at the picture again and I can see it now. I'll have Ally ask Host for watercolor stuff. It sounds like fun. I want to do something fun, but no one is allowed to see me...I want to be real. I want to be a little boy in a boy body. No crying, I'm a boy, no crying. Boys don't cry. Why can't I be a real boy? I can't help but cry, no crying. Have you felt this way? Like you're not real? I feel like it now...I want to be real, so bad. Why can't I be real?

That is so sad, Carter I wish you didn't feel so sad! But crying is okay for boys too!
I sometimes feel just like that. I want to be a real little girl and play on the playground or forest and have no worries, and I want to have a mum who takes care of me like the little girl I am!
It makes me more sad than the other things to think about mum, 'cause I can never have that. Even if some inner person would play my mum, it's not same at all, 'cause I mean a mum who takes care of outer world things and when some inner person does that, I also feel their stress a little and know that they're not a completely separate person. And I won't show myself to host's mum, because we should be adult for her already and host never wants to make her worry.
-Winter

We have some boys too, but they don't talk. Maybe they are sad too! The littlest boy is eight and the others are older, like almost adults. Hehe, I know more than they think.
-Icecream

we the littles we got a kitty bottle to drink water out of
we where at the hospital today as the host husband need an op so E don't have babies
we not well enough to have babies
host husband is getting the op in one week and we to look after him when he comes home
he said he will be very sleepy because he has to go to sleep for the op
we got a Hogwarts t shirt when we got the kitty bottle
wish they have more smiilies