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I needed to do that.

That is a relieved finger dance.

I am so relieved the awkward situation with my sister has been resolved.

Sorry everyone for not being on here as much as I usually am. It has been an intense few days and I needed to avoid some things. But now that the big situation is over I hope to get myself back into this place again


So --- anyone want to share how they are?

Very anxious and worried. Have to see the dentist soon and it is a big trigger. Ick. Ouch. Don't want to go.

I'm dealing with a lot at the moment and I have to keep reminding myself of that because I have a tendency to beat myself up for being weak and not coping. Having it down in black and white (or possibly blue!) will hopefully remind me not to be too hard on myself. So; I've had some flashbacks which have really been hard to handle over the past few days and I'm struggling to keep myself calm. A friend died recently and I have to go to her funeral next week. I have to hold down a job and look after a toddler. So I must give myself a break once in a while

Jayson wrote:Very anxious and worried. Have to see the dentist soon and it is a big trigger. Ick. Ouch. Don't want to go.

Oh, I'm sorry Are you the kind of person who is comfortable telling the dentist that you have a big issue around dentists so if you need to take a break then you will let her/him know? Is it just a check up or are you getting work done?

Owleyes wrote:I'm dealing with a lot at the moment and I have to keep reminding myself of that because I have a tendency to beat myself up for being weak and not coping.

Good grief. Yes... please remind yourself that you are dealing with a heck of a lot and everyone on this planet would be feeling a bit dragged through the hedge backwards. Just because you are feeling the tension and the stress does not make you weak and not coping. It makes you a 'typical' human being! I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. I hope things look up for you soon.

Horrible, sad and alone. Ironic considering there are 60+ of us.

mosaicmonkey wrote:Horrible, sad and alone. Ironic considering there are 60+ of us.

So sorry!!!

I am feeling much better! For whatever reason(s) the intrusive memories, thoughts, and emotions have eased a great deal, allowing me to stay more present in my life. It is a very welcome change!

I have also realized just how much the part of me who is connected to this most recent set of memories really doesn't want to experience them. I keep on hearing over and over from my T and what I am reading that sometimes it is advisable to stay away from the memories. Well, I seem to be hearing from this child that is what she needs. She needs for me to completely believe her that what happened was really really horrible for her, without her needing to show me what it was. I think that I might be able to do that- I will certainly try to do that. I just sent a long e-mail to my T, which probably contains everything that she has been trying to help me see over the last couple of months- things that could take a lot of the pressure off of me. As long as no crisis comes up, I am sure that the next session will be about the content of that e-mail. (I have this mental image of her reading the e-mail and exclaiming, "At last!!!")

It's kind of funny, she had asked me to re-read a chapter in a book and I only partially read that chapter, but I did read another book by the same author, and a bunch of things finally clicked into place. The book that I actually read was a bit of an odd choice, but all that really matters is the results.

mosaicmonkey wrote:Horrible, sad and alone. Ironic considering there are 60+ of us.

It is ironic but don't they say that you can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely? I think that kind of loneliness is more about not feeling understood and supported.

The Cat's Meow wrote:I am feeling much better! For whatever reason(s) the intrusive memories, thoughts, and emotions have eased a great deal, allowing me to stay more present in my life. It is a very welcome change!

Whoop! That is great news

The Cat's Meow wrote:She needs for me to completely believe her that what happened was really really horrible for her, without her needing to show me what it was. I think that I might be able to do that- I will certainly try to do that.

This is so important. Belief without needing to be a detective. I need to do that too!

I am so relieved the awkward situation with my sister has been resolved.

That's awesome!

Have to see the dentist soon and it is a big trigger.

Me too. Like Bourbon said, it helps to talk to them, I did to mine, and she was rather compassionate. I hope yours will be too.

@Owleyes, ((Hugs if wanted))

Horrible, sad and alone. Ironic considering there are 60+ of us.

I'm sorry.

. She needs for me to completely believe her that what happened was really really horrible for her, without her needing to show me what it was.

That's cool, I need to do that as well really.

@Bourbon, How are you doing today?

Blah. We lost a pet today. I have a very very upset Kerry who is convinced it is her fault. That she killed him. She killed him because she is such a bad person and does everything wrong, she says. She fell asleep hugging her new dinosaur cuddly toy. I've woken trying to process how this week has in one way or another all been about death and us being responsible for death. Bleh.

Thanks for asking Borg. X