Stress, feelings/lack of them, various symptoms etc.

I feel like apologizing for starting another useless thread, but then again, maybe it's not useless since I feel that I need to talk about this.
Currently I'm experiencing some stress due to changes that I didn't expect at work. My future is suddenly uncertain and I'm waiting for news about what will happen, feeling powerless, and actually being powerless. None of it is my fault, yet...

*triggers, physical and mental stress symptoms*
All this has caused my stress levels go up, and my mind is performing the old tricks it always resorts to, like going mechanically through every failure and mistake we've made in the past, being scattered in a million different places at the same time, feeling unreal and watching things happening from a distance, having difficulties in staying in the here and now and developing worst case scenarios of things to come.
Additionally, for the past few days ever since this situation unfolded I've felt physically extremely tired, weak and achy all over the place, with lots of headaches, stomach pain (those two are inter-related and worst when I wake up), nausea, poor appetite, dizzyness, chest and breast pain, buzzing ears and a heavy weight on my chest and throat. All this is psychosomatic. Daytime is absolutely the worst and I've slept for several hours on most days, waking up feeling twice as sick. Nighttime has been easier and I've felt calmer regardless of difficulties in falling asleep, only to wake up feeling terribly hungover the following morning. And all the time I feel this huge guilt about my existence and the failure I am.

There's no sign of my parts, I wonder if they even exist. Instead, I have vivid nightmares every night that include arguments, violence, getting lost and losing things, going to court, interacting with people who have been intimidating, and so forth.
I've also cried a few times while feeling like there's no light at the end of the tunnel.
My thoughts about myself are that I'm a fool and people dislike me.

In my opinion all this sounds like a bout of depression. If only I could feel proper feelings instead of these symptoms. I wish I could deal with this normally, but I've blown everything out of proportion in my head (without my own consent). I have no self-harm thoughts, I just want these horrible feelings to stop, but I feel like I'm falling.

*hugs if wanted*

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad lately.
Work-related stress is horrid. One thing we've started doing that helps sometimes, is to write down what's stressing us out about work and then put it in a drawer or under another book or something of that nature. Often then, we will say to one another (or even I'll just say to myself), "Right now we are going to ____. We are stressed out about ____, but that can be dealt with later."

In the meantime, since nothing is your fault, could you talk to your boss?

Sometimes, when I get really upset, I have a hard time listening to or even listening for my other parts. And yet, we also go through periods where sometimes everyone is super noisy and other times they're not. For example, I didn't hear from one of my parts for months. Not a peep. I came to find out it was because she was up all night. I was simply missing her due to timing. It sounds like everyone in your head is being quite active at night what with the dreams and sensations. Is it possible for you to put out an open question? I do that sometimes to good luck.

I hope things get less stressful for you!

LittleRedDog, hugs accepted and thank you for your reply.
I've talked about it with my boss, actually he told me the news about the delay in a project I'm supposed to start in. It's being negotiated all over again, and all I can do is wait, which I've never been good at.
The past year has been the most hectic ever for me at work, and I accepted this new opportunity mostly because I felt I had to outdo myself every day, all the time. There was too much to do and too little time. Edit, this wore me out.

I'm feeling a little more grounded and less tense at the moment. Thank you for the tips, especially regarding all those dreams. It could be that my other parts become active while I'm sleeping, which would explain daytime tiredness and the beaten-up feeling I have when I wake up.

As a matter of fact, LittleRedDog, I applied your advice yesterday and wrote on a notebook page:
Take it easy. Life goes on. Take all your troubles and put them in a box and lock them away.
I even made a picture of the box.
Shortly after that I started to calm down and made the previous post. I had no nightmares last night.