I? We? Afraid, distraught, indifferent? 

Ah. How do "I" put this? It wasn't until recently that I told my therapist that I was so highly conflicting, that I felt as if there were more than one person living inside of me. I haven't given any of my other "selves" names or ages because I feel like that'll disconnect me even more from whatever ground ever had. I don't even know... I'm so confused.

One is altruistic, self-less, kind, nurturing,  loving, accepting, intelligent, multi-lingual, etc. Can easily maintain a job and is the most prevalent due to her ability to adapt to many environments. Doesn't care much about romantic relationships, as most time is spent helping others. Ideal job: would be in the human services (psychologist, teacher) or law enforcement realms.

Two is overtly borderline. Constantly fluxing between loving and hating someone. Is HIGHLY irritable, and will despise someone they love over the smallest of things, like coughing while they're talking. Is afraid of being left alone or abandoned, and will cry at the 
mere thought of it, but treats loved ones the worst. It's a constant push and pull relationship with everyone. The moment the feeling of abandonment comes in, so does the  need to want to commit suicide. Can't decide if a romantic relationship somewhere down the line is worth it or not. This one's ideal job: could not keep a job down. 

Three cannot tolerate being around anyone. Will do anything to avoid social situations because humans annoy this one. Thinks humans are too shallow and daft to waste time on. Also doesn't care for put-downs or compliments. Has a hard time expressing emotion; can't feel joy, excitement, sadness, anger, etc. Will spend hours being introspective and daydreaming about being alone in the woods or at a breathtaking beach house. Will also read and expand knowledge a lot. And completely asexual. Ideal job: web designer or pilot.

Four avoids human interaction because she feels inferior, ugly, stupid, and is highly sensitive. Can't stand criticism or will feel inadequate and suicidal. Wouldn't mind finding a fireman Prince Charming who can protect her from anything and anyone. All she'd want to do with Prince Charming is be in his arms and feel safe. Ideal job: doesn't think anybody would hire her, as she's not good enough.

Five is the one who's afraid of everything and everyone. Is afraid of men, can't be left alone with one for more than a second, or panic consumes her. In fact, she has almost soiled her pants on many occasions out of fear of men. Doesn't feel much safer around women, but solace can be found in them because they haven't hurt her as much as the men in her life. She feels vulnerable and needs to feel safe, but she never does. Feels like her stuffed animals want to kill her and that they talk badly about her behind her back. Ideal job: none, would rather stay home and play video games all day.

Six is almost exactly like Five, but at a different "age." She eats a lot because she wants to be unnattractive to men. Has troubles with bulimia and binges whenever she feels upset, which is all the time. Ideal job: none, would still rather play video games. 

Seven is the one that stays hidden in the shadows, as seven must stay locked up. Doesn't give two $&$$ about humanity and wouldn't mind seeing it suffer, as it caused its own demise. If this one saw someone begging on the street for help, they'd probably stand and watch, maybe even egg on the misery. Is highly likable like #1, but can be manipulative just to gain pleasure.  Loves being in control of everything and everyone. Wouldn't mind paying off people to pleasure them. Thrives off of power. Ideal job: vigilante or con art.

This description would fit anyone who has been hurt a lot.

Hey,

How did your therapist respond to what you said to her? It sounds like it may have been a hard thing to do - open up about your alters - has it been beneficial? Do you think you could work with her to help each alter with their separate issues and help you collectively to get to where you want to get in life? How are you coping with all this, aside from being confused? Sorry to bombard you with questions. I read all your very clear descriptions about your alters but wasn't sure exactly what you wanted as a response.

Bourbon

civillian wrote: I haven't given any of my other "selves" names or ages because I feel like that'll disconnect me even more from whatever ground ever had. I don't even know... I'm so confused.

Figuring out names and such might actually help. It helps them feel more real, and if they are accepted as real... if they have SOMETHING that is theirs... they might calm down a little. I know for us, part of the problem was that I (W) was ignoring the others and trying to do the "lalala you're not real" thing.

It's normal to be confused. It is sometimes a confusing situation. With time, though, hopefully it can be less confusing.