EMDR Question and blocking it, and a few more Questions

Hi, when my psych does EMDR, for some reason I tend to not listen to her. Like someone in me is stopping it from working. They block it out by thinking about anything but what the psych is saying and just act like their listening instead of really focussing on what the psych is saying.
How do I stop them doing this. I cant seem to focus on what the psych is saying. Its like we're not allowed to and I dont know how to explain this to my psych so I just dont say anything so how am I supposed to let the EMDR help when this keeps happenning?
Also, sometimes when my psych asks me to shut my eyes, and when I do, I have to open them again or I feel like im falling, getting dizzy etc and starting to drift away to some other place, like I start to not know where I am. How can I control this?
Can anyone else relate?
How do you get your others to share information? When I lose track of time, I hate not knowing what happenned.
My psych thinks I also have complex PTSD, anxiety and depression as well as D.I.D
How do you cope with being alone? Yet you dont want to socialise?
Does anyone else freak out with thunderstorms? I dont always, but think one of my others do, because sometimes when theres thunderstorms, i'm not bothered at all, but other times, anxiety kicks in badly to the point where I try to escape and even feel like I want to go to the hospital because it seems like a safer place.
Sorry if the above seems all over the place, just confused and trying to find answers.

Hi Poetic,

Hi, when my psych does EMDR, for some reason I tend to not listen to her. Like someone in me is stopping it from working. They block it out by thinking about anything but what the psych is saying and just act like their listening instead of really focussing on what the psych is saying.

I've found something similar to this occasionally happens when I'm doing EMDR. Usually it's when we're discussing something the others don't want me to know about. For example, we were discussing the event that seems to have caused my first alter and suddenly I was just blanking out entirely during the EMDR. The T said this was probably due to one of the protector alters trying to protect. Also, I have to ask, do you feel you can trust your T? We didn't start doing EMDR until I'd been talking to her for more than six months. Even then the trust wasn't entirely there. Initially I couldn't close my eyes when I was in the same room as her and I couldn't deal with not having a "protective cover" over myself, such as a blanket or a scarf. I think a lot of this had to do with making other parts feel safe as well as myself. Maybe bring yourself a cover.

How do I stop them doing this. I cant seem to focus on what the psych is saying. Its like we're not allowed to and I dont know how to explain this to my psych so I just dont say anything so how am I supposed to let the EMDR help when this keeps happenning?

You could also ask if you can record a session for review later. You could also print off what you've written hear and show it to your T if you don't feel comfortable saying things. I know writing things sometimes works for members of our group. I've also found it helps to let my T know when I'm feeling dissociated if I can.

Also, sometimes when my psych asks me to shut my eyes, and when I do, I have to open them again or I feel like im falling, getting dizzy etc and starting to drift away to some other place, like I start to not know where I am. How can I control this?
Can anyone else relate?

Yes. It sounds like you're starting to dissociate when you do EMDR. Without even realizing it, in situations like this, I'll start rubbing my legs, snapping my fingers or tapping my chest in an attempt to stay present. Sometimes the T will help me by directing me to do something such as concentrate around me and other times she just tells me to relax and reminds me that I'm safe in her office. Perhaps if your T were more aware of your experiences s/he could help you deal with them more?

How do you get your others to share information? When I lose track of time, I hate not knowing what happenned.
My psych thinks I also have complex PTSD, anxiety and depression as well as D.I.D
How do you cope with being alone? Yet you dont want to socialise?

Something I've found over the last few months especially is that if they want to tell you, then it will be told on their schedules. I think the best example of this has been Violet waking me up at 4 AM to talk with her and then me trying to explain that I wanted her to wait until we saw the T before going into potentially scary or difficult conversations.

Does anyone else freak out with thunderstorms? I dont always, but think one of my others do, because sometimes when theres thunderstorms, i'm not bothered at all, but other times, anxiety kicks in badly to the point where I try to escape and even feel like I want to go to the hospital because it seems like a safer place. Sorry if the above seems all over the place, just confused and trying to find answers.

You might freak out with thunderstorms because of a bad feeling or association with them. I know I freak out for the same reason when in an enclosed space. I've found it helpful for me to remind myself that that time will pass and I'll be okay. Sometimes this helps and sometimes it really does not. I know what you mean though about wanting to try to escape.

Anyway, welcome to the boards.