dissociative parts/session w/ T today

So I've posted quite a bit on here about my back and forth thoughts about my current therapist. He out of anyone finally knew what was going on with me but had started saying things about cell memory and demonic oppression (he and I are both Christians which is why I sought him out). He told me that he was very surprised at my interpretation of his thoughts and that it somehow got distorted into me thinking he thought I was possessed and doesn't understand my illness. He said it's quite contrary-that I have a major dissociative disorder and he doesn't downplay that....when I informed him of the "voices" and conversations I have with myself he said he only asked about cell memory to rule things out rather than jumping to conclusions I guess. I feel somewhat conforted with this response and I do understand. I told him that I can sense evil and what's going on with me and these voices are far from that. God is with me and I can feel it. He agreed. We talked a little more about the voices and conversations but I told him that I cannot ever really hear what they're saying because it mostly sounds like loud resturaunt chatter thats irritating but I can't make out what's being said. The only time I can really hear what's being said and have conversation with myself is at night when my mind is at rest. I've heard that these are normal hallucinations upon falling asleep but I talk to the voice and it talks back. The only problem is that I always forget so my T and I agreed I should put a journal right near my bed and/or purchase a sound recorder if I can. I feel like these voices are just dissociated parts of myself that are pushing into awareness and he agreed with this as well. He noted that his mention of demonic oppression is only because of the amount of negativity that he senses in the way I speak. I cannot speak anything less of a Christian to think this way because I am the same, I just know these voices are not that. I feel happy we clarified that and I think the channel of communication has opened for freely and today was a big breakthrough for me because normally I would have just split and went to see someone else without saying a word. That's my past experience. Sorry this was so long, I guess I had more to say than I thought Thanks to all for your kind words and advice.

This is great news brandons mom. As bourbon would say..."been there, done that, got the Tshirt." If I had a dime for every time I totally misinterpreted or negate something my T said, I wouldn't be up at 3:30am right now to be at work at 5

So glad to know this is working for you in the right direction

I see. Your therapist was exploring your beliefs about what is going on with you and you interpreted his questions as statements about you. Who in your family of origin is the kind of passive aggressive person who labels others by asking faux questions? The kind of person who says Do you have a problem? when they really mean You have a problem!

dividedtruth89 wrote:As bourbon would say..."been there, done that, got the Tshirt."

LOL

Great news. I'm so glad you finally managed to get it all out in the air. I hate being left stirring about something a therapist has said so I try to tackle it now as and when it happens but sometimes it is really hard to do so.

What is going to happen with this other T you sought out?

Yay for you Must feel like a weght has been taken off your mind!

Bourbon