Journal entry

I just wanted to share a journal entry I wrote and see if anyone can help me understand my mind...thanks if you have the patience/time to read this:

I forgot to share of an experience I had the other night. I was lying in bed and just closing my eyes to go to sleep and could hear the sound of a woman's voice laughing in my head, there is also the sound of child's laughter and at other time's a childs crying. I sometimes hear these things also during the day so I'm unsure if they're a result of a nightime hallucination but I can hear them when I'm driving, I can hear a woman's voice talking but can't make out what is being said and it's mixed with a male voice but they sound very far away and faint. I assume it's my interpretation of what woman as a whole sound like to me but I don't even understand that thought? I don't know, it's kinda weird. These voices sound like chatter in my brain like people talking in a resturaunt, always in the background. It's noisy but I can't hear the words or make out the content. There are times when it's louder than others. This is al making me feel very crazy and I wonder if everyone hears these things?

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I'd really like to know what others' opinions of this are and sorry if it makes no sense at all

It sounds like you are starting to tune in to your alters. Listen and you may begin to hear more. Call out to them and they may hear you and answer you.

Una+ wrote:It sounds like you are starting to tune in to your alters. Listen and you may begin to hear more. Call out to them and they may hear you and answer you.

I have a lot of "chaos" in my head. I don't know any other way to describe it. When I try to listen I get sick/headachy/dizzy/depressed, so I tune it out with dissociation. Sometimes I hear voices but I think it's just me thinking, it's always my own voice just saying a lot of different things at once, but the "chaos" is in the background of that.

When you say "call out to them" do you mean in my head or out loud? What would I say or expect to hear back?

thats a really good way to describe it as choas all at once. I too hear my own voice saying a bunch of different things at once whether its an opinion about something or someone or a feeling or anything really. It makes it really hard to understand what I'm feeling when I have different things telling me different things lol I know that sounds confusing but I get what your saying...I don't know what that is but I meet with my therapist tommorow so I'll bring it up to him.