two different questions....

For those diagnosed DID-Can the manifestation of a protecting alter come in the form of thoughts? I mean, repetitive thoughts during a time of trauma that keep the host from being focused on reality? Second question is....what does it FEEL like to lose time for those that do? Are you aware at all that you're losing time? If you're co-concious with a protective alter how does the protector protect you? Thanks

For those diagnosed DID-Can the manifestation of a protecting alter come in the form of thoughts? I mean, repetitive thoughts during a time of trauma that keep the host from being focused on reality?

Why not?

Second question is....what does it FEEL like to lose time for those that do?

What does it feel like to forget? The only time I know I lost time is because the insides told me. Either through a nagging feeling of missing something, or they will say outright, hey, you blacked out and we did blah blah blah, evidence here.

Are you aware at all that you're losing time?

No.

If you're co-concious with a protective alter how does the protector protect you?

It depends on severity of what's going on. Sometimes, I'll suddenly stop hearing but get a vague idea of what's going on, or I'll black out. Another time, I'll be pushed out of the body while I watch the alter handle the situation(in my body), but I'm not privee to hear or see the details of what's going on. (I'm just floating there being like hey!), sometimes someone else is there by my side telling me it's okay.

Yes, a system protector can influence from the inside - as in thoughts. They do a great job at manipulating the current host. It is hard at first to know if it is them or you. After time you learn to tell the difference, just like any one will with the various parts of their brain. All humans have various parts to the brain such as this who influence with emotions. With DDNOS-1 and DID it is more extreme.


Loosing Time - No, there is no awareness usually for me. I don't fight it and don't fight them. It is their body too, as much as it is mine. I am so use to living in a daze, but I am currently trying to pay attention to things I would normally ignore. For instance instead of discounting that I am somewhere I don't remember going, (this is often) I now acknowledge it and ask inside who was out.

I have 4 Level 25 Alters that try to keep this sort of thing from the host and from those in the external world. I am able to ask them yes or no questions - in fact I can ask any part inside yes or no questions and get an immediate answer. Often I ask - okay, who came out today and took over even if I did not notice that I had lost time.

I have little autonomy. Either some part of me is here with me, the core self as in being co-consciousness or some part has taken over the role of host and that time is totally blank for me. It's like living in a dizzy fog. Like being drunk all the time - blackouts and all.

Second question is....what does it FEEL like to lose time for those that do?

Are you aware at all that you're losing time?

Sometimes I can physically feel another coming forward (I get a really bad headache), othertimes not a clue it's coming, then nothing. I don't go to an inner world or anything like that. When I am aware again I am usually in a relatively safe spot, which is much better than a few years ago when I would literally come to in strange places with no clue how I got there or what I was doing there.

If you're co-concious with a protective alter how does the protector protect you?

My system is not usually co-conscious, it's occured a few times but only under conditions of extreme stress. That's when one of the protectors has stepped up and screamed instructions to get me moving, if I don't respond fast enough I end up losing more time.

Kero

Kero wrote:Sometimes I can physically feel another coming forward (I get a really bad headache), othertimes not a clue it's coming, then nothing.
Kero

Kero - To avoid the headaches, try not fighting the switch. I had read that is what causes the headaches and I avoid fighting. When I feel a headache begin like this, I ask that part to work with me and not force things. It has worked for me. It might help you as well.

I will gladly give it a try, the headaches are really rough and I end up losing time anyways, so it's not like fighting accomplishes anything.

Thanks
Kero

I hate the headaches! As soon as the slightest twinge begins.... talk to that part! Reason with them and explain to them what they are doing and try to work on it together.

I've noticed losing time on a few occasions. When it happens it feels like nothing since apparently I'm not there. I've noticed it because I've done something during it, usually thrown something important away. That always gives me a very creepy feeling, like there's someone else I don't know of doing things behind my back. Now that I know what it is I hope the alarming vibe will go away.

I can most defintely relate to the feeling drunk feeling. Actually for a time, all I was doing was getting drunk to numb the things going on inside my head but it just made me lose time more and was doing some pretty freakin crazy stuff when I blacked out....anyways, I hate feeling drunk like this, I get so dizzy I feel I'm about to fall over. What about having DID or DDNOS makes you dizzy?

brandonsmom777 wrote:I can most defintely relate to the feeling drunk feeling. Actually for a time, all I was doing was getting drunk to numb the things going on inside my head but it just made me lose time more and was doing some pretty freakin crazy stuff when I blacked out....anyways, I hate feeling drunk like this, I get so dizzy I feel I'm about to fall over. What about having DID or DDNOS makes you dizzy?

It's the dissociation. I can't see how anyone with DID could tolerate being drunk much, although I will drink some at times to not feel even more, but not enough to get drunk.

It's not good to like this however. My T tells me to work on being grounded and not feeling dissociated. It's so hard though! It's all I know. We have 5 sessions a week these days and that helps. He reminds me to work to stay present.

Life and enjoyment is now, he says.

That is so hard!