Is this what its like when an ego jumps out of the body?

I don't know what to make of what happens sometimes. I had an appointment with my doc this afternoon, so I took an hour off of work to go. As usual, I seem to get pretty worked up after these appointments. Lots of trances and communications with those other egos.

When I returned to work, I suddenly had this intense feeling like a man was standing behind me blowing air into me left ear to annoy me. I got a strong mental image of a man that would fit right in with the grunge era. I also had the image of watching myself from a distance during this time. I think I've always had the image of the grunge guy in my mind. It was pretty freaky. The most embarrassing effect of the appointment was the uncontrollable bursts of speech that would come out of "my" mouth. I had some control over the vocalizations, but I had no control over having my body randomly move and what not.

So, what is going on with this grunge guy? Is that experience just anxiety related, or is this another ego?

Hey walden,
looks like the answer to this question is gonna have to come from you. This is gonna take some deep thought and reflection. It's an interesting experience, and I hope you figure it out.

What kind of feelings do you have when you "see" this grunge guy? Are you comforted? Frightened? Amused?

I've done that! And experienced that. I don't have much time to play around this morning to type everything but..
It used to be that I would 'float' outside, watching myself, usually, just to the right, like peering over my own shoulder. It used to be my 'special trick' when I was little, however I don't remember doing that, just relishing the thought of being able to leave in mind but not body. Then sometimes, it would feel like someone is doing the same to me, usually rider does the whole objective observer thing. I'm not anxious or anything when that happens, unless an the one who is close by is anxious, then I'll feel it, but it's like as if someone is breathing anxiously down my neck, not me, but I feel it cause they do. I hope that makes sense. It's like seeing someone cry, it makes one want to cry, but I'm not sad, I just feel bad for the person. ugh. makes sense? Also, a protector can make me feel on edge, but mostly at night, like I have to watch my back, but telling them the FOO is gone helps with that feeling, unless we watch a scary show.

Anyway, like Dividedtruth89 said, look inside, say hi, maybe someone will answer back, maybe not. Ask yourself questions.

Walden, I have very similar experiences, especially after therapy sessions, with the exception that I don't go outside my body and I don't visualize any insider. I often feel the presence of my insiders close behind me, looking over my shoulder. One particular insider plays with (possesses?) my right ear, wiggling it, tugging it, sometimes poking it with a sharp object. Another one causes intense headaches behind my right eye. Sometimes one or another insider speaks through me. When this happens I feel a welling up inside and then I blurt something out loud. I have no idea what I am going to say; I just hear myself saying it.

Your out-of-body experience is a very common symptom of severe dissociation. A small minority of people with severe dissociation (including myself) don't leave their body; instead we go inside into a limitless void.

Una+ wrote: Sometimes one or another insider speaks through me. When this happens I feel a welling up inside and then I blurt something out loud. I have no idea what I am going to say; I just hear myself saying it.

I have experienced that too..It is hard to suppress that one. Sometimes I have to get home ASAP so I can acknowledge that "welling up" feeling. Once I do, a huge burst of communications and twitching come thru. Those headaches are pretty awful. Do you ever get tingling, electrical sensations that fly around inside your head? Twitching and jerking around now as we speak!

Una+ wrote:I often feel the presence of my insiders close behind me, looking over my shoulder. One particular insider plays with (possesses?) my right ear, wiggling it, tugging it, sometimes poking it with a sharp object.

Ouch! There is one inside me that makes my head move away from what I am doing. And another that makes the legs dance when I am sitting. It feels as if I am a puppet and the puppeteer is pulling my strings however he feels.

Borg wrote:Anyway, like Dividedtruth89 said, look inside, say hi, maybe someone will answer back, maybe not. Ask yourself questions

Good advice- I think I'll attempt a conversation next time that happens. I have a habit of denying what is happening and convincing myself its not real. That is probably very counterproductive though, eh?

walden wrote:Sometimes I have to get home ASAP so I can acknowledge that "welling up" feeling. Once I do, a huge burst of communications and twitching come thru.

Do you know you can ask them to wait? Explain that you need to get through the workday or whatever, and there will be time to talk later. I find it helps to say when will be a good time.

walden wrote:Do you ever get tingling, electrical sensations that fly around inside your head?

I have experienced a number of different sensations inside my head. The most bizarre one was a feeling of a bubble of hot liquid swelling then bursting and soaking my brain. I experience a lot of tingling and buzzing in my body, especially in my pelvis, but sometimes in other parts of my body.

walden wrote:I have a habit of denying what is happening and convincing myself its not real. That is probably very counterproductive though, eh?

Yes.

walden wrote:Good advice- I think I'll attempt a conversation next time that happens. I have a habit of denying what is happening and convincing myself its not real. That is probably very counterproductive though, eh?

Just remember you can just ask inside anytime anyplace. None of us on this board have ever tried to convince ourself our DID is not real. Putting off getting to know the other parts of you just puts off the stability that good communication brings.