Sneaky Alter!

I meet about every 3 months with my psych for medication management related to depression and anxiety. I have met with him 6 or 8 times, but the core has been the spokesperson. Sometimes an alt will be co-conscious, but not involved or in charge.

Yesterday, we met, and I was dealing with some mourning issues, so I was in rougher shape than I normally am when I meet with him. (I also have a therpaist, and I see my T 2 - 3 times per week, so my T usually gets to help me with my issues).

Anyway, I had a situation in which I felt helpless, and that's a sign for my alt named Coach to step in and save me from that feeling. So, almost every other sentence of my conversation with my psych was Coach speaking instead of my core.

My psych was well-versed on DID - understood how there can be ebtirely different metabolisms, etc. - and seemed open to it, but has never had a DID client before. This was the first time I have shown up exhibiting the alts. After awhile, he quit asking questions and just looked at me, as if waiting to see what was coming next. This was not something he had done before.

I'm not sure he knew what was happening. I was unaware of it at the time - I had no co-consciousness, which is unusual these days. Just flipped back and forth and later realized that was going on.

I sent him an e-mail afterward, explaining what was going on. No reply yet, but my T is going to be calling him in a day or two to consult, so maybe he'll discuss it with my T.

Two days ago, I was having some black outs, finding myself in the wrong lane or on the wrong street to get where I was going.

Thanks for letting me check in.

You have a lot of people on your team (pun for Coach) which is a great thing.

Hopefully you can work with both the teammember inside and outside to get the meds figured out.