I'm not sure, but I think I might possibly have DID

My friends first brought it to my attention awhile ago that something was "different" about me. Like on some days they said I acted 'funny' and not like myself, and yet I have no memory of doing or saying anything they told me I had done and said. And once I supposedly ate coconut, my grandma told me I did, but I couldn't have because I'm allergic to it. But my grandma kept insisting that I had eaten it and she keeps trying to get me to eat it now, and I still don't remember eating it (Save for the time when I was about twelve years old and I ate it because I wanted to see what it tasted like and I landed myself in the hospital) and I definantly would've remember eating it because I should've had an allergic reaction. And in the past month or so my close friend has said that at times I've been getting really strange and it's been scaring her, she's said that I give off really angry vibes and that she feels that I was hostile toward her, and I don't remember it. Then I've found out that I've had family members put away for various disorders in the past, so I decided to look into the possibility of there possibly being something "wrong" with me. I read a few articles (this one was the one I thought was quite informative:http://www.sidran.org/didbr.html) on DID and I realised I had all the symptoms except two.
I get migraine headaches, I since I was really little. I've had bouts of depression and mood swings, I have sleeping problems, I have panic attacks occaisionally and I have flashbacks to things I don't really remember but I know they happened, I often see and hear things, not bad things it's just like...seeing and hearing things as if they were there but they aren't. I also talk to other voices in my head, and make people up spontaneously, then I use them as characters in my stories.
My mom told me that I had been molested as a young child and that I was one of the youngest children in my area to testify against their offender. I don't remember any of it, I don't remember testifying and I don't remember the act, but I do remember several other things that happened around the same time.
Around a year and a half ago I was raped, and I don't really remember it. I get flash backs from time to time, the only reason why I know it actually happened is because apparently I told my girlfriend at the time it happened about it. I only know I told her because it was brought up in several of the arguments we had.
When I was 11 my mom was addicted to many different medications and I believe they chemically altered her brain, she was not herself and I took care of her. I had to drop out of school in the tenth grade so I could watch her all the time. She did and said things that frightened me, and some things I don't remember but I saw them written in one of my journals.
Do you think that based on this there could be a possiblity of me having DID and if so is the possibility high enough that I should go see a councellor and get a professional to see if I have it?

Dear Guest,

Hello. I'm a 36 yr old female recently dx with DID. I can relate with many of the things you say in your post.

Dissociative disorders run on a continuum. So you don't have to have full fledged dissociative identity disorder. You can have what is called DDNOS - dissociative disorder not otherwise specified. This can sometimes be a precursor to full fledged DID. It can have some but not all of the symptoms of DID.

Based on your post, i don't think it would hurt to speak with a professional. It will help ease your mind either way. Be aware that it most always takes more than one session for DID to be dx. I was first dx with depression/anxiety, then bi polar, obsessive compulsive disorder, and post traumatic stress disorder with dissociating symptoms before the official dx was ever made. It took about five months for that to occur. But that i was dissociating was recognized early - just not to what degree.

It sounds like you have suffered some trauma.

That you talk to voices in your head may also be a clue. Do these voices respond to you, to each other? Do you feel they are seperate from you? And, of course, your memory lapses.

I also write, and i (and some of my family members) used to think i was taking on the personas of my characters. I have since realized, however, that many times, the characters i write about are actually based on those inside. Writing, for me, is probably dissociative.

Look at this way, it will not hurt you to talk to someone. Even if it is not a dissociative disorder, it sounds like you could benefit from talking to someone about what you are going through and experiencing.

Hope this helps, and keep us posted as to what you do and find out.

Best wishes,
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