"The flock"

Just finished this book, finally, after threatening to throw it away a few times with absolute green jealousy.

Has anyone else read it?

Bourbon

I haven't read it but have been considering it.

Based on your reaction, should I avoid it?

Well, a heads up on what caused the jealousy issue for me: the therapist basically adopts the DID client as her own daughter. Something that has been my fantasy for years and years and years. The therapist takes her home and they become "a family".

It is a good book - just my issues around wanting to be adopted flared up a lot whilst reading it.

Bourbon

Yeah, I think that would trigger me too.

Watching the movie Sybil triggered me for that reason - I felt so jealous watching her have such a good relationship with someone and experience true love and caring.

I think I will avoid that - at least until those issues are ones I can deal with in a better way.

Good idea. To be honest, even reading posts on here sometimes triggers me in that way.

I live in UK, cannot afford private therapy, and am very lucky to be given 2 more years of psychotherapy under the NHS. But NHS therapy is VERY strict. NO contact outside the 50 minute session, no more than once a week. To hear people talk about their therapists rooms and giving them more time if necessary etc does make me wish I was rich & could afford a private therapist.

Bourbon

I understand. This is the first time in years I've had enough money to afford therapy and I'm very scared that my new insurance is going to decide that "I've had enough" (which happens regularly to people) and then I won't be able to afford to see her unless I give up eating. I hate being poor, too.

How unsettling that you have to feel preoccupied with that worry at times instead of just being able to feel you can be in therapy for as long as you need. That's what its like here with the NHS too. >.<

I'm glad you liked the book. I haven't read any books or seen any TV about DID.

This issue with not being able to access therapy is why I'm thinking I should just be left alone rather than have people with varying degrees of competancy reopen old wounds then leave me to deal with the consequences. I'm thinking I want to be left alone to exist through life as best as I can. Not sure that's ever going to happen though with the government trying to force everyone back to work. X

I wish I wasn't alone. I wish someone would treat me as an individual. But I understand not wanting a half-assed job.

~Poppi~

I just want to say I grew really sad while reading this thread...I feel kind of bad for ever complaining about therapy or not being able to find the right T...I mean at least I have the ability to find one and pick and choose who I go to. In no way am I rich...the way it works here is if you are under 26 and you have a parent who has health insurance through their job(and most jobs, if not all, do offer insurance to full time employees) , then you automatically get covered. So I'm basically getting a free ride from my Dad's job since I'm 22. Even when I become 26, I at least have the confidence that I might be able to have a job that is full time and offers insurance as a benefit. If all else failed, I would see if I could find a T who would do it for free (pro-bono)or for a discount. THAT would probably be pushing my luck, but at least I know it's a possibility. Basically, the government really doesn't have any say in who I go to or when I go. The majority of it is worked out between the client and the therapist.

Now, about "The Flock", I too can see myself getting triggered by this. I'm also one of those who wanted T to adopt her Don't feel that way with the new T for some reason...maybe because for some odd reason she triggered my adult self? Lol I was trying to be really polite because she was so quiet and inteligient sounding. I was able to connect with her on both an intellectual level and an emotional level, whereas with previous Ts achieving both of these in one session was difficult.