Hurt *Trigger: some religion & demon talk*

Im sorry you are going through so much. That must be really hard. Could my others hold memories that are not true?

healedangel22 wrote:Im sorry you are going through so much. That must be really hard. Could my others hold memories that are not true?

Oh, I really don't want you to take it that way. When that happened, it wasn't memories that spurred me into the nausea/seizure/delusional episode, it was feelings, and really random stuff that my feelings at the time validated as a "memory". So I would definitely trust your others memories until you have reason to believe they are not true. I literally can see the path my mind went to start believing the things I was believing. I was literally having "delusions of reference" and all kinds of stuff. If you have ever seen "A BEautiful Mind, and the scene where words in magazines seem to jump off the page to John Nash, and he starts to connect them all thinking they are part of a Russian conspiracy, that is what was happening to me that night in the hospital. I also thought the beeping machine was sending me signals with clues to my past. While I do believe something has occurred in my past that has been pushed down/dissociated, I don't believe, right now, that it was this particular family member that was the perpetrator, simply because I remember the exact path my mind took to get to that point, and it is not based in reality.

Once again, please trust your others until you have reason to do otherwise. Let your mind rest, it has been through quite an ordeal with that memory. Then revisit it when you feel able. Even if it were a false memory, I think it still would have roots in reality, like I believe mine do.

ok. The memory Pamela told me went along with the reality of the past that I remembered. I just didn't know how much of the abuse happened and to what extent which I have recently learned.

Me and my brother just got in a fight over Pamela smoking his last cigarette! GRR

Just got off the phone with the Pastor from the church. He does not believe I am demon possessed and understands that this is a mental thing. He also said that me AND my others are welcome to the church anytime. That makes me feel so good inside. Not only does the doc understand but now I know that the Pastor of the church I go to understands. We are all very excited except for Pamela because she is deaf and does not know yet.

That's awesome! Congratulations, I'm so happy for you!

I am also very happy for you. How did you end up talking to your pastor about it? Were you all like, hey, so I have a mental disorder and if you don't accept it I'm not coming anymore? That's the kind of thing I WISH I could say to a pastor/friends who think that hallucinations are demons!!! JK keep us updated on how things go. I want to get involved with a church, but they usually look down on you if you don't connect and get involved. I like getting involved, I just don't connect well with people all the time...

I called the Pastor and asked him if he knew what multiple personalities was and he said no. I explained to him what it was and how they came along. I then told him I was calling cuz people think Im demon possessed and I wanted to know his opinion. He was like no, the Holy Spirit and demons can't remain in one body and he said so there is no reason to pray for demons to leave. He said he will be praying for my healing. And that he didn't care whicih personality showed up at church.

healedangel22 wrote:He was like no, the Holy Spirit and demons can't remain in one body and he said so there is no reason to pray for demons to leave.

That's exactly what I said to myself to help me not feel like I was evil or some $#%^!!! It just kind of came to me. I was all like, I have Jesus in my heart, so I don't think any demons can get in...

sooo glad you are understood and validated. Have a great time at church It sounds like you've found one that Jesus wouldn't blow a gasket in and start flipping tables over and stuff if He walked in there today!

I'm glad you were able to explain things to your pastor and that he was so understanding. I hope that it offers you a safe and accepted physical place to go to when you're feeling outcasted from others.