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Re: Random thought thread

Postby Aecy » Fri Aug 12, 2011 11:19 pm

Good gosh. Someone in here makes everything seem so freaking fear-worthy, but when we actually get past it, it turns out awesomely.

Today I went to see the psych. Actually, that was yesterday, dear. ~brows knit~
Anyhow. Yesterday we went to see the psych. It went awesomely. Caught up, briefly, on this past month, went over some crap, talked about depersonalized memories which apparently are part of being awake and seeing things but not being the one running the show, so to speak, which is how it is a lot of the time with at least a few of us. There are usually more watchers than actors, I think.

Anyhow. Also Wraith has been active, and we have been able to write again which is FANTASTIC. O_O
I kinda had to... ~Thinks~ What was I saying? Oh. Nevermind that for now. We were all ######6 switchy and she said we switched very "smoothly." Whichi s something we kinda knew but we still feel kinda caught with our pants down and exposed when we're caught in the act of switching as somebody has to "pick up the reigns" and fetch info and all of that $#%^ in a big hurry from somebody else and it doesn't always go smoothly and we all tend to feel kinda retarded. <.<;

But yeah everybody wanted to be out at once and it was awesome and kinda fun but hard to keep tihngs straight and not go off on tangents and forget what was about to be said because everybody wanted to get their chance and yeap.


~Thinks~ Writing. Wraith. Someone wanted me to say something about that but slipped into the back. ~Tilts head~ Something about how it went.
OH YES! Couldn't write today. But then I took a nap and STILL couldn't write. Until I wrote down what I "saw" in what I think was either a dream or a conversation between alters that I was only half-aware of. Either way after I wrote down that, I suddenly knew what I was supposed to be writing, and I did.

:D I wouldn't mind making a habit of this getting home and writing short pieces of a story thing.
It's very therapeutic.
I'd prefer to simply not worry about identities.
We're each me, yet not each other. We work together and share information; we're quite co-conscious.

The "three sections/three gatekeepers" theory is holding.
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He tends to see only what he expects to see.
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby dividedtruth89 » Sun Aug 14, 2011 2:05 am

Lyrics to my favorite song right now. Listen to Peter Auty version, Walking in the Air, from the movie "The Snowman", if you know it! It's my avatar :D

We're walking in the air
We're floating in the moonlit sky
The people far below are sleeping as we fly

We're holding very tight
I'm riding in the midnight blue
I'm finding I can fly so high above with you

Far across the world
The villages go by like dreams
The rivers and the hills
The forest and the streams

Children gaze open mouthed
Taken by surprise
Nobody down below believes their eyes

We're surfing in the air
We're swimming in the frozen sky
We're drifting over icy
mountains floating by

Suddenly swooping low on an ocean deep
Arousing of a mighty monster from its sleep

We're walking in the air
We're dancing in the midnight sky
And everyone who sees us greets us as we fly
None at this time
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby Eisa » Sun Aug 14, 2011 2:21 am

This week is gonna be really really really really hard. :cry:
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby Toast » Sun Aug 14, 2011 2:37 am

Eisa, why is this week going to be really hard? :(
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby Eisa » Sun Aug 14, 2011 3:58 am

Cuz my bf is going to the lake for a week and we probly won't get to talk to him at all cuz the reception sucks. :( I depend on him for, erm, well, everything. :oops:
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby under ice » Sun Aug 14, 2011 6:30 am

dividedtruth89 wrote:Lyrics to my favorite song right now. Listen to Peter Auty version, Walking in the Air, from the movie "The Snowman", if you know it! It's my avatar :D

We're walking in the air
We're floating in the moonlit sky
The people far below are sleeping as we fly

We're holding very tight
I'm riding in the midnight blue
I'm finding I can fly so high above with you

Far across the world
The villages go by like dreams
The rivers and the hills
The forest and the streams

Children gaze open mouthed
Taken by surprise
Nobody down below believes their eyes

We're surfing in the air
We're swimming in the frozen sky
We're drifting over icy
mountains floating by

Suddenly swooping low on an ocean deep
Arousing of a mighty monster from its sleep

We're walking in the air
We're dancing in the midnight sky
And everyone who sees us greets us as we fly

I love that song and the film! I noticed your av yesterday and it made me happy :)
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby NeedHelp1234 » Sun Aug 14, 2011 5:57 pm

Working on our collective self-esteem issues starting as of last night. I'm so sick of feeling beneath everyone just because my mind gets me to believe that I am, when I know in a rational mindset that I'm worth more than I give myself credit for.
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby sev0n » Sun Aug 14, 2011 6:46 pm

You go girl!!!!!

Being overweight is one of the biggest self esteem issues people usually tackle. It sounds like you are young and fit. Without a doubt you are smart. You should not have any self esteem issues!
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby NeedHelp1234 » Sun Aug 14, 2011 8:50 pm

tylas wrote:You go girl!!!!!

Being overweight is one of the biggest self esteem issues people usually tackle. It sounds like you are young and fit. Without a doubt you are smart. You should not have any self esteem issues!


Thank you for that :). That's mainly why it's such a struggle for me/certain ones inside, because we are fortunate to not have very much to complain about but still feel really low. It's the mentality that we are worth less than others, or aren't as good as we can be that drives me crazy. I want to be grateful and proud of what I am because there are so many who deal with a lot worse than I do. Some part of me wants to say that it's childhood brainwashing that's keeping me from feeling good about myself, no matter what I fix or change it's always that underlying issue >_<.
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Re: Random thought thread

Postby mystic dolphin » Sun Aug 14, 2011 11:03 pm

hoe do you keep bad people in your head when they're fighting to come out. Im trying really hard to stop it but its winning?
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Poor concentration + memory so can't reply to long posts and may forget we've spoken. Apologies!
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